If only there was a way that I could be in two places at once
So I made it through another first day of class. I didn't have class until 1230 which was sweet and it was my ballet class which was even better. I loved it because I was used as a leader/example thing because I am one of few that has had dance experience before. I was really excited, but I do have to buy a book for it and it sucks. My sociology class is going to be quite interesting. The list of topics on the syllabus are some what controversial so it should make for a good class. My psych class seems retarded but at least Michael is in there with me.
So I have realized how much it sucks not to be there for a best friend who really needs you right now. After talking to her tonight I wanted to be back home so bad. I do love this place as well. I missed a lot of different people, but it just seems to become more and more distant every school year. I am surrounded by people yet I feel alone and empty. I have my college friends right beside me and I have my friends from home calling and texting all the time, yet why do I feel like this? A part of me is really having problems with trust right now. Since I have been burned in the past I have built super thick and tall walls around myself. There are very few people that have truly broken them down. I feel that I once again lost a really good friend and there's nothng I can do about it. I received some very encouraging words last night. For awihle it really had me pumped up, but then I wake up this morning a wreck. I honestly dont know what is causing some of the hurt and pain of it all. People think that they know me, but in reality people don't know me at all.
So I have realized how much it sucks not to be there for a best friend who really needs you right now. After talking to her tonight I wanted to be back home so bad. I do love this place as well. I missed a lot of different people, but it just seems to become more and more distant every school year. I am surrounded by people yet I feel alone and empty. I have my college friends right beside me and I have my friends from home calling and texting all the time, yet why do I feel like this? A part of me is really having problems with trust right now. Since I have been burned in the past I have built super thick and tall walls around myself. There are very few people that have truly broken them down. I feel that I once again lost a really good friend and there's nothng I can do about it. I received some very encouraging words last night. For awihle it really had me pumped up, but then I wake up this morning a wreck. I honestly dont know what is causing some of the hurt and pain of it all. People think that they know me, but in reality people don't know me at all.