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One of the hardest things for you, Christine, is to be alone. Ironically enough, however, this is probably one of the most important places for you to be. Now is a time in which you need to learn how to be content when you are completely apart from other people. Don't look upon this as a punishment for yourself. Look at it as a time when you can grow and develop more of your own inner state.
::cring::
I knwo i broke up with him! And i know im better off, but still that doesnt make this any easier!!! I am so incredibly hurt by everything that has happened in the past 24 hours and almost wana die!!
Samara finally sank her claws in and for sure enough it was "byebye christine" I went from getting "baby i love you!::silence:: baby please tell me you love me, i really wish i could hear you say it please" "i love you too mike" to about 6 hours later getting
-"do you want your pictures back?"
-"i thought u wanted to keep them"
:;giggling in back round and a tearing noise::
"Are you tearing up my pictures?"
- "No...(then in backround samara: No i am!!! because i want you the fuck out of them! There thats better!! ::giggles::"
He brought her to fucking sears!!! I mean seriously WTF and he tought non of my coworkers were gonna say naything to him?? And he though I WOULD BE OK WITH IT when he was asking me to come over after work so we could chill and work things out?!?!?! Then he has the awdasity to walk up to me outside of sears as im about to break down crying, tries to kiss me, then samara sits down at a clse bench so he cant, then asks me why im upset! HELLO ASSHOLE!! Then he told me he was gona leave his phone on and that i should call him when i get off so we can see what happens and if i could come over and chill!!!
FIRST: he lies and says hes at justins!
THEN: He fucking rips up my pictures...and then the asshole wonders why ALL his girlfriends hate him! And 10 to 1 samara is the one that fucks him over with all his exs!!
So yea, this all relates to todays horoscope at the top because I have this incredible hatred of being alone! And now, without mike I am alone. See ALL my friends - well best friends- have boyfriends and are always busy with them on the weekends, which is perfectly fine! But see then that means i have NO fucking LIFE on the weekends except work cuz all my friends are busy! And also that means that come Monday morning im gonna have to hear about their wonderful weekends with their wonderful boyfrineds...and im alone =(
I DONT LIKE BEING ALONE!!!!! INFACT I HATE IT!!! and theres nothing i can do to change it! especially since today is the day im supposed to be and enjoy my "alone-ness"
This 3 day weekend is gonna MAJORLY suck ass!!!
And i hurt-not physically but mentally and emotionally!!
Someone please tell me im better off!
Please tell me I can do this, i CAN get through this!
PLEASE tell me he lost out and Im not the one whos losing anything!
REMIND ME THAT HES AN ASS!!!! ::sighs/cries::
Bye
::cring::
I knwo i broke up with him! And i know im better off, but still that doesnt make this any easier!!! I am so incredibly hurt by everything that has happened in the past 24 hours and almost wana die!!
Samara finally sank her claws in and for sure enough it was "byebye christine" I went from getting "baby i love you!::silence:: baby please tell me you love me, i really wish i could hear you say it please" "i love you too mike" to about 6 hours later getting
-"do you want your pictures back?"
-"i thought u wanted to keep them"
:;giggling in back round and a tearing noise::
"Are you tearing up my pictures?"
- "No...(then in backround samara: No i am!!! because i want you the fuck out of them! There thats better!! ::giggles::"
He brought her to fucking sears!!! I mean seriously WTF and he tought non of my coworkers were gonna say naything to him?? And he though I WOULD BE OK WITH IT when he was asking me to come over after work so we could chill and work things out?!?!?! Then he has the awdasity to walk up to me outside of sears as im about to break down crying, tries to kiss me, then samara sits down at a clse bench so he cant, then asks me why im upset! HELLO ASSHOLE!! Then he told me he was gona leave his phone on and that i should call him when i get off so we can see what happens and if i could come over and chill!!!
FIRST: he lies and says hes at justins!
THEN: He fucking rips up my pictures...and then the asshole wonders why ALL his girlfriends hate him! And 10 to 1 samara is the one that fucks him over with all his exs!!
So yea, this all relates to todays horoscope at the top because I have this incredible hatred of being alone! And now, without mike I am alone. See ALL my friends - well best friends- have boyfriends and are always busy with them on the weekends, which is perfectly fine! But see then that means i have NO fucking LIFE on the weekends except work cuz all my friends are busy! And also that means that come Monday morning im gonna have to hear about their wonderful weekends with their wonderful boyfrineds...and im alone =(
I DONT LIKE BEING ALONE!!!!! INFACT I HATE IT!!! and theres nothing i can do to change it! especially since today is the day im supposed to be and enjoy my "alone-ness"
This 3 day weekend is gonna MAJORLY suck ass!!!
And i hurt-not physically but mentally and emotionally!!
Someone please tell me im better off!
Please tell me I can do this, i CAN get through this!
PLEASE tell me he lost out and Im not the one whos losing anything!
REMIND ME THAT HES AN ASS!!!! ::sighs/cries::
Bye