Quick update
Well things are "okay" i still feel horrible and KNOW that in the pit of my stomach, the back of my head and the bottom of my heart - i will prove to lenny i love him
Also, during the fight he said something that made me think....
love is an action, like caring. Its an action feeling. You can love anyone...but being IN LOVE with someone is beyond your control.
Well im waiting till we get through our shit to tell him...
i think im falling in love with him.... i sure hope so!
Last night i was a bit late for work...lol thanks lenny...and i was kinda fustrated about that BUT 3 things happened that made it ALL better.
1.) Brit (yes the girl alex cheated on me with) came to see me. Shes such a sweetheart!! I feel so bad she had to go through the same shit i did...and thats why she came to see me - to talk. Shes a smart pretty girl...shell get over him and get someone SO MUCH BETTER!! I honestly didnt care what he did, what he does or what he will do...he doesnt matter, but brit -the sweetie she is- totally got screwed over!! Im glad she could come to me....i may have shit to deal with but in the end i love being there (for the most part) for my friends
2.) Everyone said i looked beautiful in my prom pics =D And that lenny and i made SUCH A CUTE COUPLE!! so i, will needing entertainment up in kids, got to look at pictures of my babe and i. It totally helped the night pass by
3.) OK yea... best thing of the night: I walk out to my car..not sure what il find. I didnt know where we stood and how things were going...i open the trunk get my purse - nothing there. phew! I walk up to my door (and with it being night and having tint i didnt see inside) open it and find the best suprise ever I smelt a huge wiff of his amazing smelling calogne (which i love) find a reeses big cup and 2 red roses SUPRISE!!! Lenny was not there...so i called up the mom and asked to sleep over. hence why i am up this early on my first day outta high school!
OH by the way....SCHOOLS OVER!!! Im not sad..not YET Im still gonA see everyone saturday for the baccaloreate mass, then monday for the senior breakfast, then finally tuesday for graduation! DUDE....IM GRADUATING!! HOLY SHIT LoL thats when it will hit me..till then im just outta class and on vacation....
ANOTHER "oh by the way" - WE GOT OUR HOTEL!!! Holy crap man...best place ever....and we get another trip for free to stay in fort lauderdale on the beach or daytona - were going to daytona come december. Our hotel is awsome...52 inch built-in-the-wall tv, in our living room, a kitchen, and a bedroom w/ the bathroom right there (containing no doors - hence lenny will be able to see me when i bath in our 2 person jucuzzi bathtub!) Ya dog!! LoL He got that for an amazing price 5 days 4 nights in Orlando. So now its my turn to get the disney park hopper passes, or whatever park tickets we want - im SO excited....6 days alone with my babe!!!!! ::;jumps up and down:::
Alrighty back to bed ya'll night night
-love ya lenny
-stine xoxox
Also, during the fight he said something that made me think....
love is an action, like caring. Its an action feeling. You can love anyone...but being IN LOVE with someone is beyond your control.
Well im waiting till we get through our shit to tell him...
i think im falling in love with him.... i sure hope so!
Last night i was a bit late for work...lol thanks lenny...and i was kinda fustrated about that BUT 3 things happened that made it ALL better.
1.) Brit (yes the girl alex cheated on me with) came to see me. Shes such a sweetheart!! I feel so bad she had to go through the same shit i did...and thats why she came to see me - to talk. Shes a smart pretty girl...shell get over him and get someone SO MUCH BETTER!! I honestly didnt care what he did, what he does or what he will do...he doesnt matter, but brit -the sweetie she is- totally got screwed over!! Im glad she could come to me....i may have shit to deal with but in the end i love being there (for the most part) for my friends
2.) Everyone said i looked beautiful in my prom pics =D And that lenny and i made SUCH A CUTE COUPLE!! so i, will needing entertainment up in kids, got to look at pictures of my babe and i. It totally helped the night pass by
3.) OK yea... best thing of the night: I walk out to my car..not sure what il find. I didnt know where we stood and how things were going...i open the trunk get my purse - nothing there. phew! I walk up to my door (and with it being night and having tint i didnt see inside) open it and find the best suprise ever I smelt a huge wiff of his amazing smelling calogne (which i love) find a reeses big cup and 2 red roses SUPRISE!!! Lenny was not there...so i called up the mom and asked to sleep over. hence why i am up this early on my first day outta high school!
OH by the way....SCHOOLS OVER!!! Im not sad..not YET Im still gonA see everyone saturday for the baccaloreate mass, then monday for the senior breakfast, then finally tuesday for graduation! DUDE....IM GRADUATING!! HOLY SHIT LoL thats when it will hit me..till then im just outta class and on vacation....
ANOTHER "oh by the way" - WE GOT OUR HOTEL!!! Holy crap man...best place ever....and we get another trip for free to stay in fort lauderdale on the beach or daytona - were going to daytona come december. Our hotel is awsome...52 inch built-in-the-wall tv, in our living room, a kitchen, and a bedroom w/ the bathroom right there (containing no doors - hence lenny will be able to see me when i bath in our 2 person jucuzzi bathtub!) Ya dog!! LoL He got that for an amazing price 5 days 4 nights in Orlando. So now its my turn to get the disney park hopper passes, or whatever park tickets we want - im SO excited....6 days alone with my babe!!!!! ::;jumps up and down:::
Alrighty back to bed ya'll night night
-love ya lenny
-stine xoxox