It' ALL in my head
I'm obsessing happily about swap-bot. I'm enjoying getting mail again and slowly starting to create again. I know I can't just jump in with both feet. My brain is not ready and emotionally I'm not ready. Brain damage sucks!!! But I seem to be getting there as long as I can keep myself in check.
I'm having a lot of trouble lately with anxiety. My anxiety level is through the roof. It's torturous. I take something now as needed but I think I'm going to have to ask my Psydoc to give me something else for the anxiety. I'm so afraid to do this because the last time he did this he put me on some thing that zombified me. I hated it and summarily removed myself from it after a short while. But this time things are so bad that I might have to bite the bullet and put up with bad side effects. Although the thought of gaining weight tears me apart.
On a lighter note, I read a slash fanfic story that was great. It had some of my favourite guys in it from some of my favourite shows to read from. The Sentinel, NCIS, Stargate and Stargate Atlantis. The story was Four Military Men by Lady Ra. It's a really sweet and funny story with of course a happy ending. Because I only do happy endings.
I'm having a lot of trouble lately with anxiety. My anxiety level is through the roof. It's torturous. I take something now as needed but I think I'm going to have to ask my Psydoc to give me something else for the anxiety. I'm so afraid to do this because the last time he did this he put me on some thing that zombified me. I hated it and summarily removed myself from it after a short while. But this time things are so bad that I might have to bite the bullet and put up with bad side effects. Although the thought of gaining weight tears me apart.
On a lighter note, I read a slash fanfic story that was great. It had some of my favourite guys in it from some of my favourite shows to read from. The Sentinel, NCIS, Stargate and Stargate Atlantis. The story was Four Military Men by Lady Ra. It's a really sweet and funny story with of course a happy ending. Because I only do happy endings.