life is good ...... or so i thought
so my dad calls last night to tell me that him and sharon are cutting their vacation short and were coming home today (friday). he told me i needed to make sure the house was clean cus sharon was in a really bad mood and he didnt want her to give me a hard time when they got home. i was bummed cus i was getting ready to leave the house and i had to change my plans to stay home and clean. and then it happend.....my dad dropped a bomb....he and sharon are splitting up and she is moving out! woooooo hoooooooo! i dont think ive ever been this hppy in my life. sharon makes my life miserable and i am soooo glad my dad finally sw the light. i was dancing around the house and was in such a great mood! i have never been happier to stay home and clean and ididnt even complain about it. :)
i tried calling eryn and she was already sleepin so the only person i got to share my good news with was jake. he is a really great guy and im glad hes part of my life. as much as he makes me happy im really confused about him to. hes a lot older so i think that makes a big difference. sometimes he gives me lots of attention and sometimes he just blows me off. i no that he talks to other girls to but what can i say about that? hes not my boyfriend and i dont have a right to be jealous but i cant help it. we get along great for the most part and i dont think we ever had a real fight. well i guess we did when he was with lindsay but yea a lot of shit was going on and i no he was really stressed out. he ws real quick to come back and apologize tho. but yea idont no. i dnot no what he expects fom me. sometimes i think were on the same page and sometimes i think were in completely different chapters. he kinda told me how he ws feelin the other night and i never expected that but it made me really happy cus i dndt no he felt that way and that made me even more confused. sometimes he makes me feel like the most special girl in the world and sometimes he makes me feel so bad. i no he dont mean to but he does it all the same. i guess thats when the age thing comes into play cus i read into a lot of things and i no that frustrates him. i bring everything to the table tho and he keeps everything in. if something bothers me i let him no and if i do somthing to bother him he keeps it in and will be cold or wont say anything at all and will snap at some random time.
and then there scott. hes mad at me right now and i cant understand why. wlel i guess i do but i dont at the same time. boys are so damn confusting to me. i guess thats why i stick with eryn after all this time. she is like an open book and i never have to guess what shes thinking or feeling cus she just tells me. scott is my newest friend and i think hes totally awesome. he makes me laugh and smile, hes witty ..... i dont no i cant really think of anything that i dont like about him. i look forward to talking to him every day and when i get online and hes not there it makes me sad and i miss him :( hes been wanting to see me and askedme yestefday if i would come over today. i told him right away that iwasnt sure cus i might have plans to see jake today but we hadnt confirmed our plans yet so i told him i would let him no. well i did confirm my plans with jake last night so when scott asked me what i was doing tonight i told him that i was going out with jake like i thought and he got mad at me and stopped talking to me. wtf!!!!!! its not like i told him i would come see him and then backed out. i told him i thought i ws seeing jake. ididnt get mad when he asked me to come over yesterday and then said no cus sarah was coming over. maybe i felt a little bit of jealousy but i didnt get mad and start ignoring him. that really pissed me off and hurt my feelings. i hate it when people are mad at me and i hate it more when idont understand why. i like jake and i have for a long time. we are good friends and sure, i would like more. is that gonna happen? i dont no but i dont think it will happen any time soon. but yea, whatever. im done talking about it cus none of this matters anyway. boys suck ...... bottom line!
i tried calling eryn and she was already sleepin so the only person i got to share my good news with was jake. he is a really great guy and im glad hes part of my life. as much as he makes me happy im really confused about him to. hes a lot older so i think that makes a big difference. sometimes he gives me lots of attention and sometimes he just blows me off. i no that he talks to other girls to but what can i say about that? hes not my boyfriend and i dont have a right to be jealous but i cant help it. we get along great for the most part and i dont think we ever had a real fight. well i guess we did when he was with lindsay but yea a lot of shit was going on and i no he was really stressed out. he ws real quick to come back and apologize tho. but yea idont no. i dnot no what he expects fom me. sometimes i think were on the same page and sometimes i think were in completely different chapters. he kinda told me how he ws feelin the other night and i never expected that but it made me really happy cus i dndt no he felt that way and that made me even more confused. sometimes he makes me feel like the most special girl in the world and sometimes he makes me feel so bad. i no he dont mean to but he does it all the same. i guess thats when the age thing comes into play cus i read into a lot of things and i no that frustrates him. i bring everything to the table tho and he keeps everything in. if something bothers me i let him no and if i do somthing to bother him he keeps it in and will be cold or wont say anything at all and will snap at some random time.
and then there scott. hes mad at me right now and i cant understand why. wlel i guess i do but i dont at the same time. boys are so damn confusting to me. i guess thats why i stick with eryn after all this time. she is like an open book and i never have to guess what shes thinking or feeling cus she just tells me. scott is my newest friend and i think hes totally awesome. he makes me laugh and smile, hes witty ..... i dont no i cant really think of anything that i dont like about him. i look forward to talking to him every day and when i get online and hes not there it makes me sad and i miss him :( hes been wanting to see me and askedme yestefday if i would come over today. i told him right away that iwasnt sure cus i might have plans to see jake today but we hadnt confirmed our plans yet so i told him i would let him no. well i did confirm my plans with jake last night so when scott asked me what i was doing tonight i told him that i was going out with jake like i thought and he got mad at me and stopped talking to me. wtf!!!!!! its not like i told him i would come see him and then backed out. i told him i thought i ws seeing jake. ididnt get mad when he asked me to come over yesterday and then said no cus sarah was coming over. maybe i felt a little bit of jealousy but i didnt get mad and start ignoring him. that really pissed me off and hurt my feelings. i hate it when people are mad at me and i hate it more when idont understand why. i like jake and i have for a long time. we are good friends and sure, i would like more. is that gonna happen? i dont no but i dont think it will happen any time soon. but yea, whatever. im done talking about it cus none of this matters anyway. boys suck ...... bottom line!