This is a cautionary tale.
My last remaining free birthday treat (thanx, corporations) was a pair of cookies from Quick Chek.
They also had a coupon for milkshakes, so I thought, yes.
Yet for some reason, I felt a social awkwardness just standing in the busy convenience store. No idea why; as per my last post, I've been in a pretty good mood, for the most part. Yet when it came to picking out a pack of cookies, I felt needlessly rushed. I felt like I had to just get my snack and continue, even though no one was standing behind me or anything. There was no social cue that I couldn't take my time and look through the selection carefully. I don't know why the fuck I felt like I needed to just grab some good ol' chocolate chips and go.
Did I also feel awkward paying in change (free cookies and $1.60 milkshake, give me a break)? Yes, of course I did. Especially since the coins went in three different directions when transferring from palm to other hand, so I had to give the cashier this odd clump of metal. But that's nothing, because when I got home with my delicious mint chocolate chip milkshake, I found out that I had
OATMEAL
RAISIN.
No amount of social streamlining is worth THAT. Y'know what would've gone well with that milkshake? PROPER CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES. Y'know what I had been planning on getting with these coupons? MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP and CHOCOLATE CHIP. Y'know what happened instead?
I FUCKED UP.
Yeah I still ate them. They were... ehh. They did not compliment the milkshake very well.
The package did say OATMEAL RAISIN on it. I did not look. Because I felt stilted and uncomfortable.
I only hope this will be a lesson to myself. I hope to learn to stretch out, take time, take space, do whatever I want at the expense of strangers' minor convenience, because the discomfort and mild fear behind my politeness is NOT WORTH OATMEAL FUCKING RAISIN.
They also had a coupon for milkshakes, so I thought, yes.
Yet for some reason, I felt a social awkwardness just standing in the busy convenience store. No idea why; as per my last post, I've been in a pretty good mood, for the most part. Yet when it came to picking out a pack of cookies, I felt needlessly rushed. I felt like I had to just get my snack and continue, even though no one was standing behind me or anything. There was no social cue that I couldn't take my time and look through the selection carefully. I don't know why the fuck I felt like I needed to just grab some good ol' chocolate chips and go.
Did I also feel awkward paying in change (free cookies and $1.60 milkshake, give me a break)? Yes, of course I did. Especially since the coins went in three different directions when transferring from palm to other hand, so I had to give the cashier this odd clump of metal. But that's nothing, because when I got home with my delicious mint chocolate chip milkshake, I found out that I had
OATMEAL
RAISIN.
No amount of social streamlining is worth THAT. Y'know what would've gone well with that milkshake? PROPER CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES. Y'know what I had been planning on getting with these coupons? MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP and CHOCOLATE CHIP. Y'know what happened instead?
I FUCKED UP.
Yeah I still ate them. They were... ehh. They did not compliment the milkshake very well.
The package did say OATMEAL RAISIN on it. I did not look. Because I felt stilted and uncomfortable.
I only hope this will be a lesson to myself. I hope to learn to stretch out, take time, take space, do whatever I want at the expense of strangers' minor convenience, because the discomfort and mild fear behind my politeness is NOT WORTH OATMEAL FUCKING RAISIN.