Fear for the new year
I'm scared, ya'll. I'm about to graduate, or drop out... one or the other... and it scares the shit outta me, cause I have NO IDEA what I'm gonna do... I mean... I keep joking about joining the peace corps just to do something... but the more I think about it, the less it's just a joke... because I have no idea what else... and I don't wanna just take any job I'm given... cause that'd prolly get me stuck there... but the peace corps doesn't seem like something I'd be willing to spend the rest of my life in.
Also... the more I think about it... the more I think I wanna just be a housewife... a stay at home mom kinda thing... but I gotta find a guy that'll go with that without being a pig about it... That want scares me... it makes me think I'll end up with some over bearing abuser... and be ok with it, until he starts beating on our kids... and I dunno what to do about it, other than just do my best at screening the guys really damn well. Uhn.
Also... the more I think about it... the more I think I wanna just be a housewife... a stay at home mom kinda thing... but I gotta find a guy that'll go with that without being a pig about it... That want scares me... it makes me think I'll end up with some over bearing abuser... and be ok with it, until he starts beating on our kids... and I dunno what to do about it, other than just do my best at screening the guys really damn well. Uhn.