fuck you rents!!!!!!!!!!!!

[crazypirate9]

gah i just want to fucking rant about my rents. sooo fucking badly. i just want to run away right now. but i dont have anywhere to go. at least not at this time of night. maybe i just want to curl up into a ball in the corner and fucking disappear. im never going to be good enough for them. they want me to get all A's and im not allowed a C on my report card...haha NOT fucking possible. im stupid...ok...there you go. no way am i going to do well in Anthony's class. no way. even if i get A's on the next two papers....ill still end up failing the class. even if i work my ass off for history, french and english this term...im still not going to do well enough. im not allowed to do community service things anymore apparently. because i need to focus on my stupid school work. not on others. colleges are not going to look at what i do for the community or outside of school. they ONLY care about grades...nothing more. my life needs to be focused on school and i should be miserable...it doesnt matter if im getting great grades.

i you are going to say im over reactiong but right now i want to strangle my rents. they arent letting me do YIP next yr. and they are trying to get me out of going to Mississippi this summer. i guess that i care about others rather than myself...i like helping the community and i dont care about school as much...sorry. my fucking life to fuck up....NOT YOURS!!!

gah and i was having such a good night talking to great people online...why did my parents have to go and ruin everything!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh