depression sucks
depression runs in my family.. my mom says i just get low.. and that getting low just lasts for a little bit then your over it.. but with me i have it in the back of my head and if something little happens it can just set me off and make me all low and stuff.. im notsure what it is.. i just want someone who can talk to me when im feeling 'low' and not make it about them and not even talk just let me roll on and on about the things that make me angry or 'depressed'.. i dont know im just like angry alll the time like the smallest thigns set me off.. like last night at the gala thing me kaitlin sarah and katlyn and dave were all in the art room doing our projects and they started talking about all the concerts theyve been too and all the concerts they are going to go to.. and ive only been to two and they were great i will say, but tickets mean money and money my family doesnt have and i dont know maybe i take thigns to far and maybe im just a baby or maybe i just have some sort of problem with myself were ihave to turn everything against myself.. im not sure.. its my fault im doing this and i wish i wouldnt.. but last night ijust got all mad and then at the end of it i finished katlyn and mines art project while she was on the computer and dave was using the staple gun and shooting staples at us and im not sure if he reads this but dave that was taking things to far.. and so i walked out with kaitlin and we were watching the show and i started to get that lump in your throat right before your going to cry (the seniors were singing that song) and i just wanted someone there who could understand me.. well thats all i have to say