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So like it's been all semester, I am the only one in the house that hops off to bed alone ... and mostly I've gotten used to it and it doesn't really make me sad or lonely anymore ... maybe its cause work and school are so exhausting, that I pretty much crash as soon I hit the pillow ... I don't do being single very well, and usually it's not often, but it's been good for me.
These were the things that I was thinking about, when it finally hit me as of why being alone doesn't bother me .... I've gotten to spend a lot more time with my friends recently then I did at the beginning of the semester when things were rocky ... I've been doing lunch with Melissa and Erin a lot, I've gotten to see more of Ticia and Stefan and that reminds me of sophmore year when it was always just the three of us, and the millions of drunken moments with Matt and Antoi are unforgettable ... and tonight was a blast getting to hang out with everyone and just unwind. My friends have been such a support, helping me through all the tears and frustrations I seem to be perpetually going through.
I was also thinking about how excited I was about going home for Thanksgiving, when, whoa...the semester is almost up. We have one more before almost all of my friends run off to various places across the country to pursue bigger things. I will still be here for an extra semester, but everyone else will be gone.
What will I do when I don't hear every event in my life paralleled to a Simpsons or Friends episode? Who will make fun of my trashy television shows? And teach me about random things like what MSG stands for, or how politics work? Who will go to the Pat O'Brien piano bar with me, then let me crash in their bed when I'm too drunk to drive? Who will ponder life with me? Who will call me their Daisy Bear and give me a big hug, and make me feel like, for a second, I'm the most important person in the world?
Sigh. And with all the random places people want to end up, there is a great chance I won't see them after graduation. Right now, that's not even conceivable to me. I spend day in, day out with them, and they have seen my every mood change and still accepted me as I was, through everything. What will I do when they are gone?
Enough sad thoughts for tonight.
These were the things that I was thinking about, when it finally hit me as of why being alone doesn't bother me .... I've gotten to spend a lot more time with my friends recently then I did at the beginning of the semester when things were rocky ... I've been doing lunch with Melissa and Erin a lot, I've gotten to see more of Ticia and Stefan and that reminds me of sophmore year when it was always just the three of us, and the millions of drunken moments with Matt and Antoi are unforgettable ... and tonight was a blast getting to hang out with everyone and just unwind. My friends have been such a support, helping me through all the tears and frustrations I seem to be perpetually going through.
I was also thinking about how excited I was about going home for Thanksgiving, when, whoa...the semester is almost up. We have one more before almost all of my friends run off to various places across the country to pursue bigger things. I will still be here for an extra semester, but everyone else will be gone.
What will I do when I don't hear every event in my life paralleled to a Simpsons or Friends episode? Who will make fun of my trashy television shows? And teach me about random things like what MSG stands for, or how politics work? Who will go to the Pat O'Brien piano bar with me, then let me crash in their bed when I'm too drunk to drive? Who will ponder life with me? Who will call me their Daisy Bear and give me a big hug, and make me feel like, for a second, I'm the most important person in the world?
Sigh. And with all the random places people want to end up, there is a great chance I won't see them after graduation. Right now, that's not even conceivable to me. I spend day in, day out with them, and they have seen my every mood change and still accepted me as I was, through everything. What will I do when they are gone?
Enough sad thoughts for tonight.