Life's a kick in the ass
Today has just sucked completely. First.. Shannon came over last night with corey, and we had an awesome time. I enjoyed it so much... I missed shannon unbelievably. But when I got up this morning.. come to find out, her dad is coming to get her early because of the hurricane. Wow.. as if it isnt hard enough that i never see her... now i have to watch her walk away again. I've just wanted to crawl up in a blanket and cry ALL day, but I couldnt. Now i'm in the most horrible mood ever. I'm balling my eyes out and it's really hard to type this. Everything is going horribly wrong... i haven't been this upset in a really long time. So when shannon left, all day i've been contimplating wether or not to go to the Toga Dance alone.. and I finally figured I'd just go as a sweet tart, and meet up with corey and sarah and them b4 the dance and just go with them. Then as soon as I started to feel a little bit better about it... I come home and my mom calls and says that she "didnt have enough time to make my toga"........ i've been telling her about this for a week and a half now, and she promised she'd make my toga last night and this morning, cuz she has been putting it off for a week n a half. Now she's out in Latimer cutting fucking grass that could possibly wait till after the storm. Im not trying to sound selfish, and im sure thats what im sounding like.. but this hurts so bad. She told me to just go in jeans and a tshirt... because lindsay said that most people do that. no. hell no. Everyone is going in toga's this year. Theres no way in hell im going. This is so fucked up. When lindsay went to toga, every year my mom worked her ass off as soon as she found out to make the toga's for her and her date.. and now it's my FIRST toga ever... and she could fucking care less. Then she tells me I have to go to my aunts house in like... fuckin wiggins, and that means I can do absolutely nothing this whole fucking weekend. I hate this so much. People have done nothing but break my heart these past few days. I'm just so ready to give up on everything. It hurt bad enough that I couldn't spend the weekend with shannon, like i had been anticipating for the past week... but now Im not even going to fucking toga. I'm so upset right now. And not only can i not go to toga, but i cant go ANYWHERE, instead i have to sit up in the middle of fucking no where, with no phone reception, with a storm thats not even gonna be that bad, with a little kid, and my grandma. Wow.. this weekend is sooo fuckin wonderful. I can't type this any more. I'm going to go lay down, call lindsay and tell her im not going, and watch tv i guess.