It's a NEW DAY!
So my brother is officially back home! They got home last night and so after work I went to visit for the evening. He's doing really well. He is complaining that his back hurts really bad. He had a massage therapist give him a massage but that didn't help. I gave him one last night but I wasn't helping any so he had me stop. I told him that he should take a hot bath (that always makes me feel better) but we didn't know if he could do that yet because of his incision.
It was SO good to see my mom. I got a quick hug right before she left for the grocery store but when she came back I pulled her into her bedroom for a LONG hug. I needed that one. We both got teary eyed. This week has been emotionally draining for the both of us. She kept telling me on the phone last week how much she wished she could be there for me. I'm just glad that she's home now.
I'm moving in with my Dad for a while. I can't stay in my Ex and my apartment. Too many reminders of what I had just a week (well really two weeks) ago. So I'm boxing up what I can and going to take it to my Dad's tomorrow and hopefully this weekend I can get some tough, strong guys to help me move my dresser, vanity, couch, bed, tv, and tv stand. I still don't know what my Ex will be doing, we are suppose to talk tonight about it. We'll see how that goes.
So there are good days and bad days. Yesterday was a GOOD day! I was really really excited to have my family come home. But when I got back to the apartment, it sunk in again that I was alone. That the love of my life didn't want me anymore. I wrote a song, had a copy for me and left a copy for him somewhere. No where obvious but I wanted him to have it. It's called "Our Story". It's an ok song, it wasn't made for popularity or the charts. It was real words that came to me.
It's just hard. I've been dumped before but this...this was different. I didn't love the ones before him. I know that now. I felt love for the first time with Will. And now I've felt loss. The saying "It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all," is true, but still hurts so bad.
But everyone has been SO great! I couldn't ask for better friends and family. It's overwhelming how many people have called me to see if I was doing alright. It makes me choke up every time I think about it. I truly am blessed with a great support group of friends and family. Thank you all so very much. I just hope that Will has the same kind of support that I have. I just want him to be happy, successful, and healthy. Even if it isn't with me. ....... even if it isn't with me......gosh that's so hard to imagine. He isn't with me.
It was SO good to see my mom. I got a quick hug right before she left for the grocery store but when she came back I pulled her into her bedroom for a LONG hug. I needed that one. We both got teary eyed. This week has been emotionally draining for the both of us. She kept telling me on the phone last week how much she wished she could be there for me. I'm just glad that she's home now.
I'm moving in with my Dad for a while. I can't stay in my Ex and my apartment. Too many reminders of what I had just a week (well really two weeks) ago. So I'm boxing up what I can and going to take it to my Dad's tomorrow and hopefully this weekend I can get some tough, strong guys to help me move my dresser, vanity, couch, bed, tv, and tv stand. I still don't know what my Ex will be doing, we are suppose to talk tonight about it. We'll see how that goes.
So there are good days and bad days. Yesterday was a GOOD day! I was really really excited to have my family come home. But when I got back to the apartment, it sunk in again that I was alone. That the love of my life didn't want me anymore. I wrote a song, had a copy for me and left a copy for him somewhere. No where obvious but I wanted him to have it. It's called "Our Story". It's an ok song, it wasn't made for popularity or the charts. It was real words that came to me.
It's just hard. I've been dumped before but this...this was different. I didn't love the ones before him. I know that now. I felt love for the first time with Will. And now I've felt loss. The saying "It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all," is true, but still hurts so bad.
But everyone has been SO great! I couldn't ask for better friends and family. It's overwhelming how many people have called me to see if I was doing alright. It makes me choke up every time I think about it. I truly am blessed with a great support group of friends and family. Thank you all so very much. I just hope that Will has the same kind of support that I have. I just want him to be happy, successful, and healthy. Even if it isn't with me. ....... even if it isn't with me......gosh that's so hard to imagine. He isn't with me.