to all the girls (and boys) i've loved before
I just read my last post and realize its time to update, at least for the couple of you who still read this damn thing, and the offchance one of my other friends will get a wild hair up their ass to see whats going on in the world of lj and stumble upon my post. ahem
Darling Carly, if you read this I want you to know how moved I was by your myspace post of your grandma. It was such a pure statement of love and admiration. I wish I had words but all I have is a heart that knows all too well the pain you are feeling. Hug your mommy a lot, it will do wonders for you both.
Jonathan, the ever elusive international man of exsistential crises.. I miss the hell out of you. Somedays I wake up extra early and sign on to AIM hoping beyond hope to see you there. But alas I must wait for that fabled promised letter... oh how many nights I lay awake and wonder if it really exists and if I will live to see it cross the ocean between us (deep and pretentious as it may be).
Mark, ain't life a kick in the ass? We talk so much about it but its really true, this world gets curiouser and curiouser. You meet new people, you lose new people, and sometimes you feel like you managed to fuck up the world of a person you just met.
And now to that person whose world I fear I am fucking up... my sincerest apologies. I hate that you feel you need to defend your right to be happy. I hope I had at least a small part in said happiness. And finally, I wish that everyone you care about cares enough about you to be happy that you are happy.
Actually that last sentence applies to everyone. Christmas is comming and soon a new year will be upon us and I think this one should be happy. Especially since so many of us have had a 2005 that was less than wonderful. Perhaps a worst year in the life for some of us. Happiness is fleeting... enjoy it while its here and try not to spend too much time worrying it away.
p.s.
in no way shape or form have you overstayed your welcome. just know that.
Darling Carly, if you read this I want you to know how moved I was by your myspace post of your grandma. It was such a pure statement of love and admiration. I wish I had words but all I have is a heart that knows all too well the pain you are feeling. Hug your mommy a lot, it will do wonders for you both.
Jonathan, the ever elusive international man of exsistential crises.. I miss the hell out of you. Somedays I wake up extra early and sign on to AIM hoping beyond hope to see you there. But alas I must wait for that fabled promised letter... oh how many nights I lay awake and wonder if it really exists and if I will live to see it cross the ocean between us (deep and pretentious as it may be).
Mark, ain't life a kick in the ass? We talk so much about it but its really true, this world gets curiouser and curiouser. You meet new people, you lose new people, and sometimes you feel like you managed to fuck up the world of a person you just met.
And now to that person whose world I fear I am fucking up... my sincerest apologies. I hate that you feel you need to defend your right to be happy. I hope I had at least a small part in said happiness. And finally, I wish that everyone you care about cares enough about you to be happy that you are happy.
Actually that last sentence applies to everyone. Christmas is comming and soon a new year will be upon us and I think this one should be happy. Especially since so many of us have had a 2005 that was less than wonderful. Perhaps a worst year in the life for some of us. Happiness is fleeting... enjoy it while its here and try not to spend too much time worrying it away.
p.s.
in no way shape or form have you overstayed your welcome. just know that.