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I miss the world being small. Like when I was 6 and I thought staying at my aunts house in modesto was a vacation. Ooh big city.
I just miss simple. Adults dont like simpe. Sometimes, in fact, things are so simple that someone won't (or can't) believe it. Drawing a picture and spelling it out only seems to reveal more layers and only causes further confusion. I want simple back in my life. Easy, and honest.
I work in preschool and I have a theory. I think the right mixture of play doh and crayola crayons may just be able to cure the insecure swirling emotional rollercoaster of adulthood. It just might work.
I had a bit of a meltdown yesterday. There is too much going on in my world. I just felt like I wanted to hold my breath and cover my eyes and ears until it all went away. Its not even a matter of things fixing themselves.. yesterday I just wanted everything to go away. I wanted to scream, I wanted to run, I wanted to cry. So I screamed and I cried. This morning I ran.
I mustve been tense because last night I had a dream that I was worried. Then I started to scream and I wanted to cry and scream in my dream. I kept running in and out of this grocery store.. wanting to just claw this persons face off but then getting in there and thinking he doesnt deserve my emotion. I cried and cried in my dream.
Ok that may be enough of an update. Going to San Diego and Mexico for presidents weekend. Then (hopefully) NY for spring break. Yeah real vacations...
I just miss simple. Adults dont like simpe. Sometimes, in fact, things are so simple that someone won't (or can't) believe it. Drawing a picture and spelling it out only seems to reveal more layers and only causes further confusion. I want simple back in my life. Easy, and honest.
I work in preschool and I have a theory. I think the right mixture of play doh and crayola crayons may just be able to cure the insecure swirling emotional rollercoaster of adulthood. It just might work.
I had a bit of a meltdown yesterday. There is too much going on in my world. I just felt like I wanted to hold my breath and cover my eyes and ears until it all went away. Its not even a matter of things fixing themselves.. yesterday I just wanted everything to go away. I wanted to scream, I wanted to run, I wanted to cry. So I screamed and I cried. This morning I ran.
I mustve been tense because last night I had a dream that I was worried. Then I started to scream and I wanted to cry and scream in my dream. I kept running in and out of this grocery store.. wanting to just claw this persons face off but then getting in there and thinking he doesnt deserve my emotion. I cried and cried in my dream.
Ok that may be enough of an update. Going to San Diego and Mexico for presidents weekend. Then (hopefully) NY for spring break. Yeah real vacations...