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so this post is officially all about Nick.
the first thing I have to say is that I talked to my mom today and told her that I plan to move in with nick when he moves to grad school....
all of those who know me know how telling that is....
for me to tell the rents, its a big deal. I try to clean things up for them so they dont know the whole thing so they are not dissapointed....
but I told them our plans (such as they are) and my mom just laughed and said "at least your honest."
so that hurtle is over.... now it all relies on us.
I love him, I want to be with him, and this life that I've made for mysef is amazing here.
but I'll have to leave it to be with him.
I dont mind leaving this awsome job as long asI get to be with him.
scary?
YES
but we've come far in the last couple months.
as long as things keep going the way they are, I think we will meet that ultimate pinnical we've both been reaching for.
if this makes sence to you, then you understnad what its like to be in love. not "oh he's great" love, but after two years (as of last 5th) with distance and school and work and family and everything else between us love.
When you evaluate every moment in your day through his eyes, where you think "oh Nick would think that was so funny, I have to tell him about it later."
when you make time in every day to talk him, even if you have nothing to say.
when you know that he loves you, faults and all. When he would never tell you to change.
when you, just by being you, and nothing less, makes him happy.
when him being him, even with all his neurotic studying and crazy hours, makes you happy... just thinking about the long hours he works makes you feel warm inside with pride.
when he tells you "I think I'm coming down with a cold" makes you want to rush to his side to feed him vitamins (even though you know he'll refues to take them because "he doesnt take pills").
when you think of all the things that drive you crazy about him, just so you dont have to miss him so much.
when that doesnt work, and you fall asleep dreaming that he's beside you, because you know how good his body fits with yours.
and you think about how much money you have to save so you can start your life together. When you think "I should buy the queen bed so we can use it as ours when we move in together" and when you read every book and think about how much better your man is than any hero in a romance....
then you know your in love.
the first thing I have to say is that I talked to my mom today and told her that I plan to move in with nick when he moves to grad school....
all of those who know me know how telling that is....
for me to tell the rents, its a big deal. I try to clean things up for them so they dont know the whole thing so they are not dissapointed....
but I told them our plans (such as they are) and my mom just laughed and said "at least your honest."
so that hurtle is over.... now it all relies on us.
I love him, I want to be with him, and this life that I've made for mysef is amazing here.
but I'll have to leave it to be with him.
I dont mind leaving this awsome job as long asI get to be with him.
scary?
YES
but we've come far in the last couple months.
as long as things keep going the way they are, I think we will meet that ultimate pinnical we've both been reaching for.
if this makes sence to you, then you understnad what its like to be in love. not "oh he's great" love, but after two years (as of last 5th) with distance and school and work and family and everything else between us love.
When you evaluate every moment in your day through his eyes, where you think "oh Nick would think that was so funny, I have to tell him about it later."
when you make time in every day to talk him, even if you have nothing to say.
when you know that he loves you, faults and all. When he would never tell you to change.
when you, just by being you, and nothing less, makes him happy.
when him being him, even with all his neurotic studying and crazy hours, makes you happy... just thinking about the long hours he works makes you feel warm inside with pride.
when he tells you "I think I'm coming down with a cold" makes you want to rush to his side to feed him vitamins (even though you know he'll refues to take them because "he doesnt take pills").
when you think of all the things that drive you crazy about him, just so you dont have to miss him so much.
when that doesnt work, and you fall asleep dreaming that he's beside you, because you know how good his body fits with yours.
and you think about how much money you have to save so you can start your life together. When you think "I should buy the queen bed so we can use it as ours when we move in together" and when you read every book and think about how much better your man is than any hero in a romance....
then you know your in love.