Emo moment
So this was an interesting weekend. Jenny and Jenine came to visit me which was very, very exciting. They got here Friday afternoon and I showed them around campus and then that night we went to two different parties. Saturday I had to go look at an off campus house possibility for next year (which is sooo stressful) with Dani and then we met up with the gang to get food, explore downtown, and then walk to the boardwalk. Today we woke up, got breakfast, I did some homework while Jenny and Jenine just kinda chilled, and then they left around 3.
I had a good time and everything, it was just a really strange experience to have people who are so much a part of my life back home be intergrated with the people who are a part of my new life in college. It almost felt like the two worlds didn't mix or something. I'm so different from how I was in high school, and I love that. I don't want to go back to the way I was before, and having my friends come to visit me in college almost made me feel like they were bringing back an old part of me. When I'm home with them I'm fine and still feel confident with myself, so it's weird.
Then today I had a dream where I woke up to set my phone alarm and I saw I got a text from Wes which I replied to, but he didn't reply back because something bad had happened to him. It felt really real. When I actually woke up I texted him and didn't get a response so when I was by his apartment I checked in to make sure he was there. He probably thinks I'm crazy, and I feel like my subconscious is kind of making me seem that way. Last week and this week have not been putting me in a good mood.
School is ending for me in less than a month, and as much as I want to go home and see everyone I love...I don't want to leave college. Even though school is a bitch, I love the social aspect and all the friends I've made. I don't want to leave them for 2 and a half months. I've gotten the system down with my friends from home, but my college friends are going to go back to their own lives and even though I'm going to try to see them over the summer I don't know exactly how everything will work out. I'm going to miss having someone down the hall that will watch Futurama with me at 2 in the morning.
I also have two papers due this coming week and a bunch of reading I really need to do. I should have gotten more done today but I just didn't have the time/motivation.
But my one positive note: Shrek the Third was amazing. "There's a strange little girl staring at us!!" *cut to a shot of Justin Timberlake's character. Ha.
I had a good time and everything, it was just a really strange experience to have people who are so much a part of my life back home be intergrated with the people who are a part of my new life in college. It almost felt like the two worlds didn't mix or something. I'm so different from how I was in high school, and I love that. I don't want to go back to the way I was before, and having my friends come to visit me in college almost made me feel like they were bringing back an old part of me. When I'm home with them I'm fine and still feel confident with myself, so it's weird.
Then today I had a dream where I woke up to set my phone alarm and I saw I got a text from Wes which I replied to, but he didn't reply back because something bad had happened to him. It felt really real. When I actually woke up I texted him and didn't get a response so when I was by his apartment I checked in to make sure he was there. He probably thinks I'm crazy, and I feel like my subconscious is kind of making me seem that way. Last week and this week have not been putting me in a good mood.
School is ending for me in less than a month, and as much as I want to go home and see everyone I love...I don't want to leave college. Even though school is a bitch, I love the social aspect and all the friends I've made. I don't want to leave them for 2 and a half months. I've gotten the system down with my friends from home, but my college friends are going to go back to their own lives and even though I'm going to try to see them over the summer I don't know exactly how everything will work out. I'm going to miss having someone down the hall that will watch Futurama with me at 2 in the morning.
I also have two papers due this coming week and a bunch of reading I really need to do. I should have gotten more done today but I just didn't have the time/motivation.
But my one positive note: Shrek the Third was amazing. "There's a strange little girl staring at us!!" *cut to a shot of Justin Timberlake's character. Ha.