Is what I'm feeling real? Is this okay?
Okay i want to apologize to everyone who reads my journal. I know i am confusing with the guys i mention. Well let me explain myself. Bradley- he goes to school with me and we have been friends since our freshman year. Now i have liked him on and off for a while and he is now starting to show some intrest in me. I will write abour our converstaion later on in this post and i will label it correctly so you know who i am writing about. Now the other guy is Thaniel.. Technically thats not his real name but thats what our youth group and his family calls him. Well he is my really great friends older brother. We have known each other for a long time and he is starting to flirt with me all the time. Its great but I know we couldnt be together without me possibly hindering my friendship with his sister. Plus his parents arent to happy about the interracial dating and I dont want things to be weird with them if we do date. Basdically there is too much at risk with dating him. Also, I care about Bradley, he and i talk for hours at a time and we have fun together.
Now to explain why i care so much about Bradley. He calls me up when i am mad at everyone and can make me smile. I cant ever be mad at him, he doesnt ever do anything wrong. We have so much chemistry, we can talk about anything, we are already great friends, heck we are best friends. We made an agreement to get married by like 35 if we werent. I doubt it would happen but the fact that we can discuss things like that is amazing. We flirt so much when we are together. Everything seems so right with us. Like we knew for a long time that we should be this close and now we are. There are some things that we told each other and things that may happen but I dont what to get my hopes up or write it in here since it may get around. We talked on the phone from 12am until 3:40 am. That wasnt as long as him and i talking for 9 hours. He is awesome.
[Me: I know you wouldnt brag to anyone if that happened]
[Him: No, I know that would hurt you]
[Me:Thank you]
[Him: Don't worry about it]