Thinking
Hmmm...so, for the most part, I have had a wonderful summer. One of the best ever actually. Now, it's over...
I start back to Akron on Monday, which is cool. I'm actually kind of excited. I'm finally free from high school with all it's crap and drama. I'm actually excited to learn again. But, at the same time...I'm scared. I shouldn't be, I've done this before, but everything will be new. New classes, new professors, new people, new everything. The classes I'm taking are going to be a lot of work. I know once I get into it and start to realize what is expected of me, I'll be ok. I just have to be ready to set my mind to it and really work hard. I'm just a little nervous right now.
I still miss my grandpa a ton. I don't think I'll ever not miss him. It still hurts a lot too. I'm really having a hard time with this. Somedays I'm ok and others...well, they're not so good. Certain things remind me of him and it just breaks my heart. I mean, I know he'll always be with me now, and he can watch over me...but it's hard to accept that he's not physically here anymore. I can't hug him, talk to him, eat lunch with him anymore. It makes me angry sometimes and others I just sit and cry. I dunno...I guess I need time. It just seems like it's been so long already.
Like I've said, Matt's home. :-) That makes me feel good. I'm glad I'll finally get to see him more. He always makes me smile and feel happy. I really missed him this summer, and it's nice to finally have him home again. I love you hun.
Can't forget my friends. They've been the best this summer. I don't know what I'd do without them. They've helped me through my hardest times this summer. They mean the world to me, and I wouldn't trade them for anything! Special thanks to three in particular. Steph and James - movies, shopping, dinners, all of it...it was the best. You always kept me smiling and helped me realize that I could make it through. I hope we can keep having the fun times even with school and jobs and what not. Love you guys. Matt - even though you weren't "here", you still made a difference. I couldn't wait to talk to you at night. Even if I had the crappiest day, you somehow made it brighter. I'm so glad you're home. I love you. The Gang - Well, we're all off to college now. I will miss you all. I probably didn't show it much, but I truley enjoyed being around you and all our get-togethers. All four years of high school I've enjoyed it. I wish you all the best of luck and I love y'all. :-) Keep in touch.
I had three wonderful vacations this summer: camp, Florida, and my family's condo. I feel very lucky to have experienced all three. They were great. Plus, I actually went up to Cleveland and auditioned at American Idol! That was totally awesome. :-) It was hot and then cold, it rained, and no one had a clue what was going on...but it was great! hehe It was an amazing experience I will never forget.
Well, I think that's it. Like I said, this summer is one of the best I've ever had and all the great memeories will stick with me forever.
Later days everyone
I start back to Akron on Monday, which is cool. I'm actually kind of excited. I'm finally free from high school with all it's crap and drama. I'm actually excited to learn again. But, at the same time...I'm scared. I shouldn't be, I've done this before, but everything will be new. New classes, new professors, new people, new everything. The classes I'm taking are going to be a lot of work. I know once I get into it and start to realize what is expected of me, I'll be ok. I just have to be ready to set my mind to it and really work hard. I'm just a little nervous right now.
I still miss my grandpa a ton. I don't think I'll ever not miss him. It still hurts a lot too. I'm really having a hard time with this. Somedays I'm ok and others...well, they're not so good. Certain things remind me of him and it just breaks my heart. I mean, I know he'll always be with me now, and he can watch over me...but it's hard to accept that he's not physically here anymore. I can't hug him, talk to him, eat lunch with him anymore. It makes me angry sometimes and others I just sit and cry. I dunno...I guess I need time. It just seems like it's been so long already.
Like I've said, Matt's home. :-) That makes me feel good. I'm glad I'll finally get to see him more. He always makes me smile and feel happy. I really missed him this summer, and it's nice to finally have him home again. I love you hun.
Can't forget my friends. They've been the best this summer. I don't know what I'd do without them. They've helped me through my hardest times this summer. They mean the world to me, and I wouldn't trade them for anything! Special thanks to three in particular. Steph and James - movies, shopping, dinners, all of it...it was the best. You always kept me smiling and helped me realize that I could make it through. I hope we can keep having the fun times even with school and jobs and what not. Love you guys. Matt - even though you weren't "here", you still made a difference. I couldn't wait to talk to you at night. Even if I had the crappiest day, you somehow made it brighter. I'm so glad you're home. I love you. The Gang - Well, we're all off to college now. I will miss you all. I probably didn't show it much, but I truley enjoyed being around you and all our get-togethers. All four years of high school I've enjoyed it. I wish you all the best of luck and I love y'all. :-) Keep in touch.
I had three wonderful vacations this summer: camp, Florida, and my family's condo. I feel very lucky to have experienced all three. They were great. Plus, I actually went up to Cleveland and auditioned at American Idol! That was totally awesome. :-) It was hot and then cold, it rained, and no one had a clue what was going on...but it was great! hehe It was an amazing experience I will never forget.
Well, I think that's it. Like I said, this summer is one of the best I've ever had and all the great memeories will stick with me forever.
Later days everyone