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i cant believe that im back to writing posts like this...i honestly didnt think this would happen, but then again, im clearly overly optimistic...i guess it is a bad thing after all.
god...i just dont know what to say
or do for that matter
but i do know that i cant do this by myself as much as i sometimes i wish i could. i just try everything but it will never do shit if im on my own. i kno that they want to make it work, or at least thats what they tell me, but then where's the effort? im busy too. i have a life too. i have a shitload on my plate right now, but I still make time, so why can't you? if you feel the way you tell me you do then why aren't you trying harder. i get that you're busy, but look at my life. am i not? you think we live in two different worlds, but thats only cause ur making it that way, we dont have to be this far. lord knows i dont want us to be this far. but i also know i cant do this on my own. i want this to work. i really do. i dont kno that you can see that, i hope you do. but i sure as hell cant see it on your end...not right now. i dont know what it is. i wish i could change this and im trying but i need your help...
so if you care enough...please help me.
i love you.
god...i just dont know what to say
or do for that matter
but i do know that i cant do this by myself as much as i sometimes i wish i could. i just try everything but it will never do shit if im on my own. i kno that they want to make it work, or at least thats what they tell me, but then where's the effort? im busy too. i have a life too. i have a shitload on my plate right now, but I still make time, so why can't you? if you feel the way you tell me you do then why aren't you trying harder. i get that you're busy, but look at my life. am i not? you think we live in two different worlds, but thats only cause ur making it that way, we dont have to be this far. lord knows i dont want us to be this far. but i also know i cant do this on my own. i want this to work. i really do. i dont kno that you can see that, i hope you do. but i sure as hell cant see it on your end...not right now. i dont know what it is. i wish i could change this and im trying but i need your help...
so if you care enough...please help me.
i love you.