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i'm tired, so i'll make this quick. today was pretty cool, i didn't really do the whole "school" thing today. i drove carol ann to maximus during school, and then we got starbucks. i got back in time for like 30 min of gov, but instead of thinking of an excuse to tell moran, i just decided not to go. i went to the end of the day of school. i think i'll miss all this when its over, but it all seems too unreal to me. its like my emotions are weeks behind reality. thats ok though, i'd rather not spend these few days left all sad and crap. i wonder if i'll cry at graduation. i'm not worried if i will or won't, i really do wonder when i'll feel sad enough to cry. it rarely happens... well, except for tuesday night, but no one even cared that i was crying. even though i NEVER cry, so i must actually be upset. i was sad b/c i couldn't parallel park, but now i can so its all good. gosh. crying never solves anything, and it usually just makes me feel embarrassed. is that weird?