Nov 18, 2004 23:26
you make me more weak than strong. thats not what i need so i'm not wasting time on it. today was good. i chilled with good people all day. wouldnt change any of it.
i wonder if the whole world is like this place full of lies and secrets and people we trust..only to find out we shouldnt. i hope not i really hope that its only this place this town these people but i have a feeling its not. tis life human nature without lies the world would be a scary place actually. i dont get it but does anyone? i say keep it to yourself..and you should have no worries...or less at least.
buried myself alive on the inside. oh damn i wanted to watch newly weds tonight..piss on an ant.
the flowers and the poem ..i dont get it. honestly i dont make you happy so stop making me happy its bullshit. no hard feelings.
you've just gotta trust her. if you dont you'll never truly know how things are. or how they could be. i dunno. you worry to much..dont rush growing up it'll happen soon enough. your strong i know you will go far i believe in you.
i'm sorry how things went down. it makes me sick knowing..how you feel. or seeing how you feel i worry about you. i dont want you out of my life. but if thats how its best then..i'm sorry. hopefully one day things will be better. love you
i dunno how things are gonna be in a year. i hope good. and they most likely will be. but it will be differant at the same time. i'm gonna miss you. and everyone else at the house. it's all been the biggest part of the last 2 years of my life. kinda weird to think about leaving it. but i need to. i'm not gonna forget it though. i promise.
bitches for life. i love you. we need to make a contract...if we loose connection any time through out our lives..something bad has to happen to us..or i dunno we'll discuss it when i'm not high. lol it'll make more sense. i promise. i love how we know everything about each other. this is one of those secrets yoru not supposed to say..but your high so its okay...lol you rock love ya.
so...today's been good. sorry if anyones offended or the info is wrong......if ya wanna bitch about it..getta hold of me. if you wanna bitch about me..its cool i'll probably hear about it eventually words get around. believe it or not...lol
goodnight st. louise