Vent...
Okay so my sister just wrote me a really really mean e-mail about thanksgiving. She seems to act like I ditched her and that I promised to go and all of this other bullshit. Whatever, I know she just wants to get me upset, well it fucking worked. Jesus christ fuck her, last time she e-mailed me she said i looked fat, and now she's saying I'm a bitch and all of this other crap. I wanted to write her back and say "fuck you you will never see Lily ever" but i'm not going to do that. However at this point I won't even bother telling her when she's born. She obviously don't appreciate that I'm growing life and doesn't want to be involved at all. That's fine she thinks she knows everything... of course.
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Bill's going to cut off my mom, which is understandable, meaning I understand but she's all freaking out about money now and I just can't handle any of this right now. Can't everybody freaking get along?! She's all mad cuz he didn't call her to tell her and honestly it's like 20 days before I'm supposed to have a baby and Christmas is coming up and my whole fucking family is falling apart. Oh well, I guess I don't have a whole lot to do with him or his family anymore. (especially stupid Emma..)
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Dad's dating Christine again, which is fine he seems really happy and everything, which is really good. But then he acts guilty everytime he talks to me like he thinks he's not spending enough time wtih me or anything. Which isn't true, but I hate how he acts all guilty. I just don't want him to get hurt by her... again.
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Dustin is driving me crazy. He's loud and he has an opinion about EVERYTHING. holy crap keep your mouth shut sometimes I don't need to know what you think about EVERY LITTLE THING I DO! Sorry i do the dishes in the wrong side of the sink you don't need to say anythign about it. Don't tell me to shut up when you get home fromw ork either. I like silence too take your own fucking advice. And if you're watching football TURN IT DOWN you don't need to have it so loud that it sound slike the whole fucking crowd is in the room with you.
Although he does do a whole heck of a lot for me.
I'm sick of everyone. I just want to be alone but when i'm alone I feel abandoned.
GOD this is like bad PMS is THAT a sign of labor, cuz apparently everything else under the sun is and NOTHING IS HAPPENING!
I wish i could stop crying...
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Bill's going to cut off my mom, which is understandable, meaning I understand but she's all freaking out about money now and I just can't handle any of this right now. Can't everybody freaking get along?! She's all mad cuz he didn't call her to tell her and honestly it's like 20 days before I'm supposed to have a baby and Christmas is coming up and my whole fucking family is falling apart. Oh well, I guess I don't have a whole lot to do with him or his family anymore. (especially stupid Emma..)
AND
Dad's dating Christine again, which is fine he seems really happy and everything, which is really good. But then he acts guilty everytime he talks to me like he thinks he's not spending enough time wtih me or anything. Which isn't true, but I hate how he acts all guilty. I just don't want him to get hurt by her... again.
AND
Dustin is driving me crazy. He's loud and he has an opinion about EVERYTHING. holy crap keep your mouth shut sometimes I don't need to know what you think about EVERY LITTLE THING I DO! Sorry i do the dishes in the wrong side of the sink you don't need to say anythign about it. Don't tell me to shut up when you get home fromw ork either. I like silence too take your own fucking advice. And if you're watching football TURN IT DOWN you don't need to have it so loud that it sound slike the whole fucking crowd is in the room with you.
Although he does do a whole heck of a lot for me.
I'm sick of everyone. I just want to be alone but when i'm alone I feel abandoned.
GOD this is like bad PMS is THAT a sign of labor, cuz apparently everything else under the sun is and NOTHING IS HAPPENING!
I wish i could stop crying...