one of the worst days of my life
ok so today was definietly one of the worst days of my life. Usually the worst days of my life are things that have happened to other ppl...and had an impact on me...ex. justus' death, my grandpa having his 3rd and 4th heart attacks (different years), worst panic attack to date spot light with the sigmas...but today was horrible for reasons DUE ONLY TO MYSELF!
it was horrible! Ok so i woke up this morning around 8 when i didn't have to be in class til 2..which means i didn't actually have to get up til 12...but I woke up with the worst cramps EVER! yeah yeah those kind of cramps...get over it i said it! I was dieing! I could barely keep my eyes open...my hearing kept going in and out i was dizzy and i really felt like i was going to DIE!
i some how was able to stagger to my moms room and she made jesse go get me some meds! i attempted to go back to bed around 10ish but that didn't happen so i read a chapter before for class.
i drove to school around 12ish i was ok my tummy was getting a bit better. but while sitting in class around 2-3 i felt dizzy confused lightheaded and about ready to PASS OUT!...once again!
after class i staggered to the bathroom and threw up! i could barely even SEE where the toilet was! it was horrible!
finally i got back to my room and i just couldn't go to work...I asked nick to work for me but didn't tell him what was wrong...he declined and said he was still feeling sick from a few days ago. So i called work and told them i couldn't find a replacement...and yeah so they basically told me I was fired if I DIDN'T GO IN!
so around 4ish I pulled myself together and attempted to drive home.
THings got REALLY BAD WHILE I WAS DRIVEING! I was shaking uncontrollably and i kept having all these random thoughts that something bad was going to happen to me while i was driving...and yeah i kept freaking out that i was going to have a panic attack...which basically threw me into PANIC MODE...i was sweaty my breathing was short i just kept talking to myself telling myself i would be ok and that there was NOTHING to WORRY ABOUT. When I got to the stop lights i kept breathing trying to make it more normal! AND STILL I DROVE ON...I DIDN'T STOP ONCE
and I made it to work...I was like by 10 min late but they let me clock in.
I don't think anyone noticed how fucked up i was either
It took me about an hr to get settled in I was still shaking really bad and my tummy hurt so bad...but I MADE IT
and I didn't freak out completely! and somehow I CALMED MYSELF DOWN...w/o anyone there I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF!
the power of the mind...
the other day NICOLE told me that i was gonna get really bad cramps because i haven't been eatting enough IRON...and i def think she was right...lol...
I just don't know what to do now?! I mean should i take a supplement or what? Is that really y my cramps were so bad...and how come cramps can cause so many other physical problems...or is it all in my head...
sigh...
anyway i'm outtie
I'm feeling so much better...just minor pain in my abdominom
it was horrible! Ok so i woke up this morning around 8 when i didn't have to be in class til 2..which means i didn't actually have to get up til 12...but I woke up with the worst cramps EVER! yeah yeah those kind of cramps...get over it i said it! I was dieing! I could barely keep my eyes open...my hearing kept going in and out i was dizzy and i really felt like i was going to DIE!
i some how was able to stagger to my moms room and she made jesse go get me some meds! i attempted to go back to bed around 10ish but that didn't happen so i read a chapter before for class.
i drove to school around 12ish i was ok my tummy was getting a bit better. but while sitting in class around 2-3 i felt dizzy confused lightheaded and about ready to PASS OUT!...once again!
after class i staggered to the bathroom and threw up! i could barely even SEE where the toilet was! it was horrible!
finally i got back to my room and i just couldn't go to work...I asked nick to work for me but didn't tell him what was wrong...he declined and said he was still feeling sick from a few days ago. So i called work and told them i couldn't find a replacement...and yeah so they basically told me I was fired if I DIDN'T GO IN!
so around 4ish I pulled myself together and attempted to drive home.
THings got REALLY BAD WHILE I WAS DRIVEING! I was shaking uncontrollably and i kept having all these random thoughts that something bad was going to happen to me while i was driving...and yeah i kept freaking out that i was going to have a panic attack...which basically threw me into PANIC MODE...i was sweaty my breathing was short i just kept talking to myself telling myself i would be ok and that there was NOTHING to WORRY ABOUT. When I got to the stop lights i kept breathing trying to make it more normal! AND STILL I DROVE ON...I DIDN'T STOP ONCE
and I made it to work...I was like by 10 min late but they let me clock in.
I don't think anyone noticed how fucked up i was either
It took me about an hr to get settled in I was still shaking really bad and my tummy hurt so bad...but I MADE IT
and I didn't freak out completely! and somehow I CALMED MYSELF DOWN...w/o anyone there I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF!
the power of the mind...
the other day NICOLE told me that i was gonna get really bad cramps because i haven't been eatting enough IRON...and i def think she was right...lol...
I just don't know what to do now?! I mean should i take a supplement or what? Is that really y my cramps were so bad...and how come cramps can cause so many other physical problems...or is it all in my head...
sigh...
anyway i'm outtie
I'm feeling so much better...just minor pain in my abdominom