Secret Hauntings
So I realized that I have a hard time letting go the people of the past...
The one's that meant so much to me...and are now gone... I realized I don't just have a hard time letting them go... I actually CAN'T let them go... I think about them constantly!!
My main pain comes from people from the past year...
What made me realize this was I got a random e-mail from my old OI coach talking about...Brian Carey...and how he has a new business and everything... it doesn't quite bring me to tears thinking about him again... it just...pains me... in a pain that I can't describe... it's not unbarable pain... it's a deep pain that has so much love and care in it...
I had so many good memories with him... and my old best friend Kristin... and my other old best friend Jacqui...
Jacqui was a sweetheart... she was so freakin amazing... but she thought I was talking crap about her sister... and she thought I ditched her for Daniel... Well... I WASNT talking bad about your sister!... and I'm sorry if it seemed like I ditched you for Daniel!!..::tears start flowing:: I miss you! It felt like right after I lost you... I lost Kristin... I lost both of my best friends in the same year... and I don't even know what I did...
Wanna know who I can't let go of??
Brian Carey
Kristin Payne
Jacqui Edford
Matt and Vikki Bunn
Seth McCola (I can't spell his last name)
Jay Bruner
Jess Badders
Josh Baker
Matt Weigmann
Adam and Emily Groffman
India Haley
Hunter Reynolds
Cody Davis
Sara Schliemer
JD Clarke
Dan Clarke
Those are the ones I can think of...
Yah... and if you see this and see your name is on my list... then cool... I guess now you know that I still care and I still think about you a lot!...and that I still miss you!!
Anyway...so everyone else... that's my past... it pains me only because I don't see those people anymore... and I miss them so freakin much, and to be quite honest... I dunno what to do about it... so I'm left here... heartbroken...
The one's that meant so much to me...and are now gone... I realized I don't just have a hard time letting them go... I actually CAN'T let them go... I think about them constantly!!
My main pain comes from people from the past year...
What made me realize this was I got a random e-mail from my old OI coach talking about...Brian Carey...and how he has a new business and everything... it doesn't quite bring me to tears thinking about him again... it just...pains me... in a pain that I can't describe... it's not unbarable pain... it's a deep pain that has so much love and care in it...
I had so many good memories with him... and my old best friend Kristin... and my other old best friend Jacqui...
Jacqui was a sweetheart... she was so freakin amazing... but she thought I was talking crap about her sister... and she thought I ditched her for Daniel... Well... I WASNT talking bad about your sister!... and I'm sorry if it seemed like I ditched you for Daniel!!..::tears start flowing:: I miss you! It felt like right after I lost you... I lost Kristin... I lost both of my best friends in the same year... and I don't even know what I did...
Wanna know who I can't let go of??
Brian Carey
Kristin Payne
Jacqui Edford
Matt and Vikki Bunn
Seth McCola (I can't spell his last name)
Jay Bruner
Jess Badders
Josh Baker
Matt Weigmann
Adam and Emily Groffman
India Haley
Hunter Reynolds
Cody Davis
Sara Schliemer
JD Clarke
Dan Clarke
Those are the ones I can think of...
Yah... and if you see this and see your name is on my list... then cool... I guess now you know that I still care and I still think about you a lot!...and that I still miss you!!
Anyway...so everyone else... that's my past... it pains me only because I don't see those people anymore... and I miss them so freakin much, and to be quite honest... I dunno what to do about it... so I'm left here... heartbroken...