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So, I am a spoiled, selfish little girl who likes to use people. YOU SHOULD HAVE LOOKED AT MY DAMN DISPLAY PICTURE, IT MIGHT HAVE CLUED YOU IN!!!
At least I'm not crying. Why would I cry over what an idiotic asshole like you has to say about me? I don't feel that I used anyone. I wont deny the selfishness, but thats a sorta new thing. Actually, I Dont think I was selfish until YOU walked on the scene and told me that it was okay to be selfish.
And that time machine? BEEN WISHING FOR IT SINCE I JOINED THE CORPS. Won't deny that the Corps has done amazing things for me, but they've also fucked me over royally. MY DAUGHTER IS SICKLY PARTLY DUE TO POOR NUTRITION DURING MY PREGNANCY BECAUSE THEY COULDNT GET THEIR DAMN ACT TOGETHER AND GIVE MY HUSBAND AND MYSELF BAS!
Now, I'm not going to say that I couldn't have done something outside this situation, but I am young, and far from my support network, and I didnt realise that this was going to affect her as much as it did. So its partially my fault. I admit, not everything is their fault. Most of its mine, for deciding to join the Marine Corps. I love being able to say I'm a Marine, I hate the reality of it. I'm sorry.
And being proud of things I've done, crazy things I'd be proud of doing? THATS CALLED LIFE, ASSHOLE, TRY IT SOMETIME.
See, the difference between you and me, is that you have some ideal adulthood where everyone makes the right decisions because it follows their honour, but in your ideal, its your honour they all follow. Listen carefully: I am an adult. It did not take Lillie to make me an adult, it took starting to raise my daughter to propel me into adulthood. Its the little things that make me an adult; the little decisions that I have to make on my own every fucking day to make sure that her life and mine don't go off track. If they don't follow a sense of honour, fuck it, they at least will conform around what I want for our lives.
Enjoy your life. Its gonna be hard work.
At least I'm not crying. Why would I cry over what an idiotic asshole like you has to say about me? I don't feel that I used anyone. I wont deny the selfishness, but thats a sorta new thing. Actually, I Dont think I was selfish until YOU walked on the scene and told me that it was okay to be selfish.
And that time machine? BEEN WISHING FOR IT SINCE I JOINED THE CORPS. Won't deny that the Corps has done amazing things for me, but they've also fucked me over royally. MY DAUGHTER IS SICKLY PARTLY DUE TO POOR NUTRITION DURING MY PREGNANCY BECAUSE THEY COULDNT GET THEIR DAMN ACT TOGETHER AND GIVE MY HUSBAND AND MYSELF BAS!
Now, I'm not going to say that I couldn't have done something outside this situation, but I am young, and far from my support network, and I didnt realise that this was going to affect her as much as it did. So its partially my fault. I admit, not everything is their fault. Most of its mine, for deciding to join the Marine Corps. I love being able to say I'm a Marine, I hate the reality of it. I'm sorry.
And being proud of things I've done, crazy things I'd be proud of doing? THATS CALLED LIFE, ASSHOLE, TRY IT SOMETIME.
See, the difference between you and me, is that you have some ideal adulthood where everyone makes the right decisions because it follows their honour, but in your ideal, its your honour they all follow. Listen carefully: I am an adult. It did not take Lillie to make me an adult, it took starting to raise my daughter to propel me into adulthood. Its the little things that make me an adult; the little decisions that I have to make on my own every fucking day to make sure that her life and mine don't go off track. If they don't follow a sense of honour, fuck it, they at least will conform around what I want for our lives.
Enjoy your life. Its gonna be hard work.