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I don't know whats wrong with my mom anymore, I really look up to her as my parental figure most of the time because my dad is usually never paying attention or something of the sort. So today I was talking to her and I was excited about a great idea I had just thought up of for a website that I will be making soon and then she throws it all back at my face. Just saying shit like that will never work and what not. When I'm talking to her trying to get her approval, trying to make sure that she thinks its a good idea and see if she has any ideas for me but all she does is bitch and say its not a good idea, saying it will never work. I'm just fucking looking for her suggestion, all I wanted her was to actually think that I had a good idea. I don't think she knows how much it hurt to hear her say that, she's the last person that I would expect to through this back at me and say that shit, I love her so much even though I don't show it, I really don't talk to my parents much but I love her so much. And she's the one that I always look up to, and I always make sure that she agrees to things that I'm starting like this, but ugh! That hurt so fucking much. I just feel like crying right now. I don't know... Its all messed up but whatever. If she wants to be like that then fine. I'll live. ... I think. I hope....