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i think i feel too much for an entry right now. i'm not sure if i have it all straight in my head. i'm just tired, tired of feeling like this, tired of worrying. tired of over analysing every action i take. i have a sick sense in my stomach that i know what is going to happen. i just don't know when. when that day comes i tell myself i saw it coming but that doesn't make it any better. why must i be so negative all the time? i will be surprised if anyone gets this far into this entry. i don't know if i can do it anymore. i was going to drink until my liver fails but nobody else is here and drinking by yourself is a definition of an alcoholic. i guess basically what it boils down to is that i am a piece of shit and i am getting treated like it. sleeping won't be easy. goodnite.
my new biggest pet peeve is when people say they will call you back and then they don't. ever. second is when everyone somehow seems to be busy when i call or try to talk to them.
my new biggest pet peeve is when people say they will call you back and then they don't. ever. second is when everyone somehow seems to be busy when i call or try to talk to them.