feels like about time
i don't know why i haven't posted a real entry in a month or so. busy? nah i spend loads of time by myself not studying. um i think for awhile i was waiting for pictures of the dorm that matt and i never got around to taking. so i guess the real reason was too much stuff going on in my mind and me not wanting to share or write it down. it boils down to me making a huge mistake and regretting it deeply. i hurt the one person that cared about me more than anyone else and the fact that i did that shows we can grow in leaps and bounds but sometimes that asshole fuck up still shines through. i don't know what will become of what i had. it doesn't seem like much has yet. but i know they can't wait forever so i have to do tons of soul searching or interspection if you will. i don't ever want to hurt that person again and they won't take me back unless they know i am sure. and i want to be sure. i think the time draws near. i want to be happy. i want to be strong. i want her.
later
later