Cheeseee Louise.
I totally forgot I HAD a livejournal. I've been wayyy to busy for livejournal/myspace. Gosh. I never thought I would say those words.
Don't you ever wonder after you've decided to do something what would have happened if you had done the complete opposite? Like, if you decide to buy a vanilla milkshake but then you wonder if the chocalate one would have been better?
Things like this are getting me.
They have been on my case so much that I've tended to snap at people a lot lately. Especially the people I care about. It's completly not my intention. It's just.. There's so much going on right now for me. I just don't know where to start to do anything.
I mean. I spend most of my time thinking about how this next school year is gonna be. It's gonna be my senior year but the one person I want to spend it with will be a kabillion miles away.
I can't stop thinking about what's gonna happen. It keeps on flooding my mind and thoughts and now even my dreams. I feel like I've found my other half but am I his?
My mind is racing and racing and I can't even do simple math [I'm trying to check my brother's hw and I couldn't think what 19-7 was...]
I'm sooo happy right now. But I just tend to get soo mad and bitchy and not just at him but at my friends too. I wish I was like before. Quieter and well kinda just there.
Anyway, anybody have any suggestions for a really flexible job I can get? Academy is starting to get on my nerves.
I love you Charlie, and I know that I seem to always get mad at you, but know that it's not because I feel like it or it's that time of the month, I just don't wanna lose you. With you, I'm in this peace that I never wanna leave.
Thanks for a beautiful year.
Here's to the next 100.
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