venting time
okay so here is what went on today..i seriously screwed up at work...and my supposed "best friend" and another one of my best friends stabbed me in the back and repeatedly turned the knife..go figure..i hate this...i am so pissed...i don't think that i have ever been this hurt in my life..well..maybe once or twice but it isn't often...and yeah all in fucking day...the only thing that i can say right now is why..i just want to go away for a little while and think..get around people that i can actually count on instead of people that constantly stab me in the back..that is almost the only thing that i get around here...right now..i can count the friends that i have in southern illinois on one hand..the ones that i can trust on 3 fingers..