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I shouldn't be happy that he called, but when I saw his number I felt myself smile. I should hate him for how he treated me and what he called me, yet I was happy to hear his voice. It was so firmiliar to me and filled with memories. Whenever I look at a picture of him or the two of us, I can't help but remember how he made me feel. I really did love, but I don't know if I should keep my distance or try to be friends. He wants to hang out, but I don't think my rents will let me. I really would like to, just to see him at least one last time. The last time I saw him, it was so sad and on such a bad note. If my parents won't let me be around him anymore, then I just want one last chance, to leave it with a happy note.
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Our show sucked this weekend, and I was crushed to hear Phil blame himself. I felt like kicking myself for that show. I know I can do better, but it doesn't help when other people gloat. Everyone was feeling so low, and we got pushed even lower and it didn't help at all. We all need to work karder, and I know that I especially do cause I'm having a very off season. I feel like something is missing this year and I don't know what it is. I don't know how to fix it. I hope states go good, because I couldn't dream of ending this experience with a crap("your crap" lol) show.
On a better note, I got to shop after the show. I got two pairs of jeans and two shirts. I went to Zender's for dinner and it was delicous, then I went downstairs with my mom to the little shop. I found Kinder (last box) and bought it (Lisa aren't you proud?).
Today my rents woke me and matt up at 9ish and made us go to breakfast with them. Then we came home and my mom and I watched mean creek. After that we went tanning, got coffee, went to office depot and then loehmans. It was all good fun. And while I was out I stopped and got part of Amanda's gift. One more week and we can go see rated R movies together!!!! Yay!!!!
Well that was my weekend in a nutshell, now I have to go do some history homework! Yay!~ Not!
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Our show sucked this weekend, and I was crushed to hear Phil blame himself. I felt like kicking myself for that show. I know I can do better, but it doesn't help when other people gloat. Everyone was feeling so low, and we got pushed even lower and it didn't help at all. We all need to work karder, and I know that I especially do cause I'm having a very off season. I feel like something is missing this year and I don't know what it is. I don't know how to fix it. I hope states go good, because I couldn't dream of ending this experience with a crap("your crap" lol) show.
On a better note, I got to shop after the show. I got two pairs of jeans and two shirts. I went to Zender's for dinner and it was delicous, then I went downstairs with my mom to the little shop. I found Kinder (last box) and bought it (Lisa aren't you proud?).
Today my rents woke me and matt up at 9ish and made us go to breakfast with them. Then we came home and my mom and I watched mean creek. After that we went tanning, got coffee, went to office depot and then loehmans. It was all good fun. And while I was out I stopped and got part of Amanda's gift. One more week and we can go see rated R movies together!!!! Yay!!!!
Well that was my weekend in a nutshell, now I have to go do some history homework! Yay!~ Not!