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RICE LADY
i lost all my dreams. And now, i have gained one. i want to become a Rice Lady when i grow. Everyone around the world will know my name and face and what i do. Even when i am long gone, people will still be talking about Monica.... the Rice Lady. First one of its kind. But right now, as i eat mee rice... i become very pessimistic. . .
So this morning, i wanted rice. i go and i make it. Well... it was kind of mushy so i added some more and tried to cook it. It didnt work. i am a failure to all rice!! i can not grow up to be a Rice Lady!! i cant even make rice right! i am a disgrace to all humanity!! So then i started to think . . .
i bet i am the only one who has the crazy idea of being a Rice Lady, when i cant even make rice. Then, the thought came across of ... what exactly would i do? i dont have a game plan!? i cant dream of being something that doesnt have any purpose. It will destroy the world! The world doesnt need a crazy people running around with crazy ideas of becoming a Rice Lady who cant even make rice the correct way! And if the the world doesnt need a Rice Lady like me...
They dont even need a monica. i mean think about it.. what would the world be like with one less crazy person in the world.... strangers wont be bothered.... no one would have to hear me complain, and hear me be all annoying. yes, it would be good. Aw. but the new thought of Being a Rice Lady is ...
I would have a purpose. i dont now. i mean really what is a monica christine matthews' purpose? Exactly! Nothing. i just sit around and bug people. It's true. Here now i will never bug or complain or become broken hearted again!! i have given up on...
Love, and speaking words that mean something to me. i feel like no one hears them, well very very few... Only two people. my two best friends.
This makes me sad.... i dont want to be sad...
<--- Me sad. ; ]
bye