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"Anyone, Anyone"
I'm not sure of anyone, anyone
But I've got plans
I'm not asking for everything but sure I could use a hand
Get a little anxious
Sometimes you'll be gone and I'll be left behind
Get a little nervous
Sometimes it'll be my cue and I'll forget my lines
Get a little lost look
And some staring from the corner of my eye
Never really mastered disinterest
I can't see how
The way that you leave me alone makes us close
I must be out of touch
I won't ask you
To give up on the things that seem to keep you gone
But I can be gone too
Feel a little sorry
Sometimes you're not here when I am writing
Feels a little awkward
Sometimes you won't talk but we're not fighting
You hold on to your secrets
And I'm not privy to what is on your mind
But I can't help but feel tired
So tired, so tired, so tired
So tired
. . .
So, today. . . was a day. Wow!! imagine that! ok so i woke up at... 5:30ish? and went with my dad to an Immigration center in Seattle. I love Seattle. We waited oh, about an hour, it wasnt too bad, we talked. Then we had a few other things we had to do. They were fun. Later, he took me to his church building (same Church just different building) and we played basketball for two and a half hours. Then he took me home. All day, it has been crazy. like, things from last night, things from today... all just spinning around in my head. All just one big mixed emotion. things i want to get out. but so afraid to say anything. and for what reason am i afraid to say anything? Who was it that said, "The biggest risk, is not taking a risk" that is so true. so should i take the biggest risk of all and not take a risk? But at the same time while i take the risk (s) there is a chance, of heart brake, plus some. now it may not be what you are thinking, but it is something i really should say. And if i do i will look like the biggest dork/loser in the whole world. but. . . why do i care what people think of me? i can not change what i feel. no one can. Dont run away from the problem, the person, the . . . love (?). it may seem like the right thing, and if it is for you then do it, but if you think it is only for the other person, and they say it is not. example: someone and i got in a disagreement, they thought something would be better for my well being, that i needed more of this particular thing. but i know it wont be. because it is better for me to choose then them choose for me. it was me and one of my parents. you know what i think . . . people should think about things more. or.. maybe i should just think less. i have all these thoughts and words, its overwhelming, and astonishing, but while i am so sicked to spill them all out. . . i am so afraid. and concerned about other peoples' feelings and thoughts, not saying that they are bad, or negative i am just worried for no apparent reason... i just suppose that worrying is what i do best ;0)
Roses are red,
Berries are sweet,
It is sad to watch
The moon go down
So hopelessly.
Another bitter
Sweet good-bye.
Another sad song
To
Cry
To.
-Thats all for the moment Ladies' and Gentlemen.-