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Because no one comments anymore, I don't know why I keep this thing.
Today I was late for work, had cramps, was overly emotional, got high, went out to eat for Nickie's birthday, and came home. Nickie is staying at Jazz's tonight and I'm incredibly jealous. I want to sleep next to someone terribly bad. Accepting applications.
I was on Western Center and nearly got on 35. I was tempted to call Alex and tell him to meet me half way for a hug.
I just feel so lonely sometimes. But the guys I hang out with are stoner assholes. Not boyfriend material at all. I can't wait to get to college and find the seriously dedicated ones.
Dedicated. That's what Nickie described me as tonight. Dedicated to my future. And she's right, and I felt proud of myself. Even though this year has been kinda sucky, I really have been focusing a lot on school and work. I'm taking care of shit dammit. Responsibility sucks balls, and I'm half and half right now as far as being independent, but it's a work in progress and I'm getting there. I'm almost grown up and today's not going to be the day I quit.
Today I was late for work, had cramps, was overly emotional, got high, went out to eat for Nickie's birthday, and came home. Nickie is staying at Jazz's tonight and I'm incredibly jealous. I want to sleep next to someone terribly bad. Accepting applications.
I was on Western Center and nearly got on 35. I was tempted to call Alex and tell him to meet me half way for a hug.
I just feel so lonely sometimes. But the guys I hang out with are stoner assholes. Not boyfriend material at all. I can't wait to get to college and find the seriously dedicated ones.
Dedicated. That's what Nickie described me as tonight. Dedicated to my future. And she's right, and I felt proud of myself. Even though this year has been kinda sucky, I really have been focusing a lot on school and work. I'm taking care of shit dammit. Responsibility sucks balls, and I'm half and half right now as far as being independent, but it's a work in progress and I'm getting there. I'm almost grown up and today's not going to be the day I quit.