Punch bag?

[crazyfruitlady]

I can't decide whether to cry, scream, kick something, or do all three at once to a person. Maybe several persons. I've been coming to uni of my own free will at 7:50am every day, getting up at 6, and all of this because I want the help that I've been TOLD I can get if I turn up and ask for it. It's due on Monday. I've been sitting here for three hours waiting for the help that's never coming, and while I'm sitting here for three hours doing sweet fuck all and then spending another hour and a half travelling home (and PAYING FOR IT), I can't do my project that's due on Friday either. And because I've been getting up at six in the fucking morning for this, I'm tired, and getting snappy, and that makes me REALLY PISSED OFF when there's actually something worth being pissed off about to begin with.

I'm SO frustrated and ANGRY! Because I'm going to fail if I don't get this help. I can handle failing because I was a lazy bitch who couldn't be bothered to get up and do work. I can't handle failing because I devotedly got up at 6am every day and came in to do work and sat there for hours but couldn't get any fucking HELP despite there being FIVE PEOPLE!!! who run this course. It's worse still because I think I might do well in my other modules, but it doesn't matter how well I do in them because this is a two-semester spanning core module and if I don't pass this I can't even do my second year.

*kicks, screams and cries*