Wow...its been awhile...
Hm...well this is incredible interesting...I definitely have not written in the thing in a long long time. I think its time to start this up again. I need to explain my feelings somehow. I don't know. Everything seems to just be not okay right now. I've been crying for 3 days straight now. And nothing seems to be helping. I don't know. I want to be happy, I really do...I just don't know where to find happiness. Happiness does not just come to me. Happiness..it's just incredibly hard to find.