...She Says She's Tired Of Life...
Wow I really just don't get it. Today....I was like laughing non-stop at school. But just 5 minutes ago I like broke down and started crying. Everytime I tried to make myself stop, the tears just wouldn't stop falling. I don't understand it. Am I really just THAT unhappy and just try to hide it behind laughter? Or do I just suck at life and cry at random times? Either/or I guess. All I can say is that I'm sooo excited to go down to ISU this weekend. One--I'm sure it'll be really fun....I mean there's a whole list of activities to do. Two--I get to get away from here. Away from everything for awhile..which is good because I'm starting to think that there's nothing really here for me this weekend. It just sucks because now I got to worry about a whole bunch of tests occuring next week. I fucking hate school so much. Ugh I'm just in such a bad mood. I feel so lonely and I hate it. I mean not only do I NOT have a boyfriend...but I also feel like second best to everyone. I'm not like pointing fingers at anyone...I just feel that way to everyone. But whatever. I don't care. My tears have dried and it's time to move on again.