i miss my best friend

[crazyfool27]

last night i was talkin to beth and it made me cry.. like seriously.. it made me miss oxford so much.. well not really oxford.. just mainly her.. shes always been there for me .. shes never backstabbed me or anything like that.. shes one of a kind. and i miss her soo much.. we were talking about how life was suppose to be.. i was suppose to stay there and we were gonna go to school together and live together.. forever.. thats the way it was suppose to be.. but like usual.. suppose to doesnt mean it will happen.. i had to move to this shitty town.. i hate it so much here... everyone backstabbs each other and talks crap about everyone be hind their backs.. its not like that in oxford.. i mean sure some still do it.. but its different.. now dont get me wrong.. i have friends here that i love to death and would do anything for.. but its just not the same.. if i never moved here.. i would have never met nick or zach.. now those are 2 guys i could deff. live without knowning.. nick doesnt get to me much like he use to.. but zach.. thats a whole nother story.. ill just act like i dont care and maybe one day i wont.. Back in oxford i had justin.. haha sure it was some cheesy little crush we had.. but we had it.. and he cared and so did i.. he didnt pretend anything and neither did i.. thats why i liked being young.. i never pretended with anyone... haha i remeber this one time at his b-day party.. he gave me a rose.. it was soo cute of him.. then that one time playing truth or dare.. haha.. in the closest.. haha yea.. i have so many good memories in oxford.. but thats all that i have of oxford... im hardly ever going to go there again.. unless its to see beth.. i guess thats one of the reasons why i didnt want my g-ma to move up here.. so i had a reason to go to oxford.. but now i dont.. well i guess i do.. i cant wait for the 30th.. i get to see my bestest friend.. it sucks having your best friend live 2 hours away.. i just miss her so much.. everytime i think about it i wanna cry.. i remember one time i was listening to the radio on the way back to cp from oxford.. it was Casey's Countdown and he was doing the long distance deication thingy.. and it was this one about 2 best friends that got into a fight and then the next day one of the girls got into a car crash and died.. her name was beth.. they never got to say good bye or even end it on good terms. and it just got me so sad.. bc i started to think about what i would do if that ever happened to me and beth.. and ever since then ive been scared that somethings gonna happen to her or me.. like seriously.. i dont know what i would do without her.. i would never get to say good bye to her and tell her how much she really means to me.. im sure she knows.. but still.. she means everything to me.. and im so greatful to have her.. i dont know what i would do if i ever lost that.. it makes me cry just thinking about it

i miss my best friend.. :(
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