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when have i become the person who i am today?
because it is not who i want to be.
i have become a young lady. a young lady who is passive. who can't take charge. who becomes completely intimidated by mostly everyone. who is so insecure about herself. undoubtedly unsure of everything. someone who won't go beyond the horizon. who allows people to put her in place.
how did it happen?
it seems so completely not me, AND cliche to be upset about who i am, but i am compltely and utterly upset about it. it effects me every single day. i arrive to work almost always unhappy. i am so short-tempered that i will flip out about the tiniest thing. when people are upset at me, im even more upset because i know i really did something wrong.
i don't like who i am,
i do want to change. i want to become the better person people always want to be. i want to become more assertive. i want to be as outgoing as i thought myself to be. i need to quit being a baby and grow up. I need to organize my life. and i need more sleep.
this realization of myself sucks.
because it is not who i want to be.
i have become a young lady. a young lady who is passive. who can't take charge. who becomes completely intimidated by mostly everyone. who is so insecure about herself. undoubtedly unsure of everything. someone who won't go beyond the horizon. who allows people to put her in place.
how did it happen?
it seems so completely not me, AND cliche to be upset about who i am, but i am compltely and utterly upset about it. it effects me every single day. i arrive to work almost always unhappy. i am so short-tempered that i will flip out about the tiniest thing. when people are upset at me, im even more upset because i know i really did something wrong.
i don't like who i am,
i do want to change. i want to become the better person people always want to be. i want to become more assertive. i want to be as outgoing as i thought myself to be. i need to quit being a baby and grow up. I need to organize my life. and i need more sleep.
this realization of myself sucks.