time to reflect
Being sick...and alone...and not having your constant companion nicotine, gives you a lot of time to sit and reflect on things. It is amazing at how different my life is these days. I never ever would have beleived 5 years ago, that I would be this type of person.
One who is by herself for the majority of the time...
One whose friends seem to have moved on... onto their own lives... who just does'nt have time anymore to do the things that were once important.
One who has conquered or is trying to conquer the biggest addiction that has been holding me back for the past 11 years..
One who after 7 years is finally going back to school...and succeeding at it.
It just blows my mind.
There are many things in my life that I am extrememly proud of. and there are somethings in my life that make me really sad. Not sad enough to the point where I am wandering around in the pits of despair..and being overly depressed about it. But I still need to make changes. As everyone does.
Change is the only constant in life.
I wonder where I will be, when I am looking back upon the now.
Will I be happy at the changes that I have brought about?
Will I still be struggling with the things that I currently struggle with?
Will those people that seem to be fading from my life still be there? Or will they be caught up in their own lives to realize that what we once had is now gone?
Will I still feel like I am always the one that is holding onto people, and experiences of the past?
It's amazing what you think about when you are trying dilligently to study for economics..how often your mind starts to wander from what is necessary to get done.
One who is by herself for the majority of the time...
One whose friends seem to have moved on... onto their own lives... who just does'nt have time anymore to do the things that were once important.
One who has conquered or is trying to conquer the biggest addiction that has been holding me back for the past 11 years..
One who after 7 years is finally going back to school...and succeeding at it.
It just blows my mind.
There are many things in my life that I am extrememly proud of. and there are somethings in my life that make me really sad. Not sad enough to the point where I am wandering around in the pits of despair..and being overly depressed about it. But I still need to make changes. As everyone does.
Change is the only constant in life.
I wonder where I will be, when I am looking back upon the now.
Will I be happy at the changes that I have brought about?
Will I still be struggling with the things that I currently struggle with?
Will those people that seem to be fading from my life still be there? Or will they be caught up in their own lives to realize that what we once had is now gone?
Will I still feel like I am always the one that is holding onto people, and experiences of the past?
It's amazing what you think about when you are trying dilligently to study for economics..how often your mind starts to wander from what is necessary to get done.