my dearest suzie...
it's not him that makes me want to cry it's the situation.. the people i want to love me never do... (except for those of you outthere... you know who you are) and when some one that i want to love me does love me.. they are thousands of miles away and weren't able to love me publicly when i was with them, when that was all i wanted. all i needed was there love to begin with. but that is a chapter in my life that i am not sure that i want to reopen. it was a bit too painful while i was there. and thinking about it now, or talking to him and he's still that same wonderful man that i fell inlove with it hurts no less then had i stepped into a timemachine and when back to the moment that he left.
i feel broken about it... so, he doesn't love me... can't say that's new. so, why do i feel like this. i know i am better then these damn emotions all they do is bring me down and break me just a little more.maybe it's not that i love him and that he doesn't love me. maybe it's that i still love someone else and there only dream is to be with me agian. i would have gladly spent my life with him then but know, i don't know how i should feel, or what i should do.
i feel broken about it... so, he doesn't love me... can't say that's new. so, why do i feel like this. i know i am better then these damn emotions all they do is bring me down and break me just a little more.maybe it's not that i love him and that he doesn't love me. maybe it's that i still love someone else and there only dream is to be with me agian. i would have gladly spent my life with him then but know, i don't know how i should feel, or what i should do.