A farewell

[crazyeyes281]

Well this weekend sucked for the most part. The only good thing that happened this weekend was on saturday which was my 3 month anniversary with jesse. Having her in my life is the best thing going on. Saturday evening we went to a going away party for my best matt couture who left yesterday to go to Iraq for a year. Matt tried to make the best of everything saturday evening at that party but deep down I know he's hurting very badly just because he'll be leaving everything he loves to go fight in the war. Just about everyone at that party would have no idea what so ever on what's going through him right now on how badly he's hurting. Out of everyone at that party I might be the only one who has an idea on what its like to get activated and leave everything behind that you love. The feelings that go through you are completely undescribable and no words can possibly describe the emotions and feelings that go through you at that point in time up to the very minute where you finally leave everything behind and go do a very hard mission. I'm truly going to miss that crazy bastard, it's going to be very hard to drive by his house and not start to cry all over again knowing he's fighting over there in Iraq. While I'm still here just waiting and living my life as i usually do and wait until its my time to go and fight in that war. It's slowly getting harder and harder to just sit back and do nothing while I see all of my friends leaving for Iraq. A part of me just wants to just say fuck it and wait for my call and another part of me tells me to find a way to volunteer to go over there and do my time in Iraq. I just don't know how much longer i can just sit back and watch and hear everything that is going on over in Iraq. Well this is enough talk I'll update some more later on.

I'm gonna miss you Matthew Couture. Make all of us proud of you and come back home safe. I'll be thinking of you all the time wishing you the best of luck. You'll be in my prayers.