what really matters anymore?

[crazyenough4u]

nothing matters anymore.. my friends have this PERFECT life with out me and its my fault.. but im done caring.. last nite i sit up and cry cuz i feel like i have no TRUE friends anymore.. everyones out hangin out without me but what does it matter.. it truly makes me wanna kill myself.. glad that everyone can be happy.. ill just sit and watch.

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[xxkendrababyxx]

I can be plenty open with you april... just you never ask or tell me anything...

AND DONT EVEN TRY TO TELL ME ANGELO TELLS YOU TO HANG OUT WITH ME BECZ THIS IS WHAT I GOT FROM HIM!
Angelo 9611: i spend most of my time with april well i try to
Angelo 9611: its hard cuss she has this anoying friend kendra who cant find someone else to spend her time with so she has to cling to april

And you didnt stick up for me which i dont know why i expect you too anymore becz he is the loveee of your life so you say... so i did what he wanted me to do... found other ppl to hang out with so he could have all the time in the world with you... this way he didnt have to revolve his relationship with you around me... which are a few more words straight from the mouth of angelo...

im sick of being blamed for us not being together anymore... did u ever think that maybe ITS BECZ U HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHO IS A TOTAL AND COMPLETE FUCKIN ASS HOLE EVEN WHEN I TRY TO BE NICE TO HIM... no i bet you didnt and u never will... nothing i can do about it except try to live around it and thats what i am going to do

[crazyenough4u]

You dont know what your talking about.. my boyfriend was the one that went online for me to ask you to hangout while im crying cuz your not the same and neither am i. so yeah sorry lookes like this is it

[oxpolyamorousxo]

Come on guys, you're best friends, you've been through so much together. Maybe you both need to make more of an effort rather than blaming each other. You guys can make it through, I love you both!<3

April, add me chicky.

[crazyenough4u]

Also kendra you try to say i dont stick up for you but that day you and angelo fought.. i guess when i left his house and hit him that means i didnt do shit about it.. or cryed on his sidewalk or what.. huh? im sorry i wanna be with you both but kendra you dont make a effort and it makes me not wanna make the effort!

[xxkendrababyxx]

i havent changed one bit besides the fact that i have stopped smoking... which is a good change but if thats going to be a reason that we dont hang out anymore then that is fucked up... you should be happy for me

[xxkendrababyxx]

i never ever told you that i wasent happy for you that you quit.. im not a person that peer presures ppl to smoke so stop acting like i am.

[xxkendrababyxx]

are u serious? how am i "acting" like you peer pressure ppl to smoke... but all of a sudden ur trying to tell me i have changed when thats the onllllly thing i have changed about me... and its not even forever... its just for a little bit so i can get my priorities straight... like getting a good job for instance

[xxkendrababyxx]

i never said your the peer presurer.. i said that you act like i am.. you make it sound like if you dont smoke i wont be your friend.. but kendra ive been quitting tooo so dont worrie about it