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oh fuck, i still have one of these?
god damn....
uhh, i guuuess ill update...for like the two of you (if that?) that read this..
i work at ups as a package thrower...i mean...unloader...but dont be fooled...i dont give a shit if your box says fragile everywhere on it...that only stops me from dropping heavier boxes on it...it dont stop me from hucking it 11 feet down a flat bed at the end of the day cuz im tired sore and wanna hurry up and go home. the job is, amazing...im getting paid to work out for 3 hours every morning, and im getting paid well...well ok, the hourly isnt great...but the insurance benifits for PART TIME are...re-freaking-dicklouuussss...basicly, i get about 1k in medical coverage every month...just for working there...and after a week of working there...i know why...im sore, im so sore that when im not sore, i get afraid and punch myself in the back so that i can stay sore...but i dont do that often, cuz im always so sore...i mean...common, in two hours i have to unload two semi's that are usually full, with boxes weighing an average of 45 lbs. with the heavy ones being 150 lbs, and having to move a box off the truck every 2-3 seconds yea...im gonna be ripped as shit in 2-3 months...
on the love life news...well...man thats a god damn complicated subject...and it basicly comes down to this...
this girl stands in front of my face even when i turn away...i havent been able to get away from her...even though i tried...and its paying off, for both of us...her constant being muleish, (read: stubborn) has shut up a lot of the fears in my head of being left behind...I still worry of course...because girl = dumb sometimes...but...her flat tenacity and pretty hardcore dedication to staying in my face has made me want to try again...of course...last time it lasted a week, and the time before that it got derailed by someone else, and the time before THAT i waited too long, and the time before that (see what i mean about this whole stubborn thing) i was a pretty big jerk and was kinda confused...(thats the amy year) sooooo, i guess this time...im gonna force myself to HAVE to look her in the face every day...i am AWSOME at finding a easy excuse to get out of a relationship when things get tough...and before i could just tell her to go home, that i didnt wanna deal with her...well now ive got a big room, and a decent sized house...(sorta) soooo, i asked her to come home early...and move in, move out of the dorms and actually live here live here...as in, she has a key...she gets mail here, she LIVES with me...my hope...is whenever i try to run away, i wont have anywhere to go...ill have to turn around, and deal with whatever is bugging me, or bugging her...and maybe...HOPEFULLY...by forcing myself to deal with her, instead of shirking the work that a relationship is, it will finally work...
aaanyways....
uhhh...
yea ok thats all i got...
god damn....
uhh, i guuuess ill update...for like the two of you (if that?) that read this..
i work at ups as a package thrower...i mean...unloader...but dont be fooled...i dont give a shit if your box says fragile everywhere on it...that only stops me from dropping heavier boxes on it...it dont stop me from hucking it 11 feet down a flat bed at the end of the day cuz im tired sore and wanna hurry up and go home. the job is, amazing...im getting paid to work out for 3 hours every morning, and im getting paid well...well ok, the hourly isnt great...but the insurance benifits for PART TIME are...re-freaking-dicklouuussss...basicly, i get about 1k in medical coverage every month...just for working there...and after a week of working there...i know why...im sore, im so sore that when im not sore, i get afraid and punch myself in the back so that i can stay sore...but i dont do that often, cuz im always so sore...i mean...common, in two hours i have to unload two semi's that are usually full, with boxes weighing an average of 45 lbs. with the heavy ones being 150 lbs, and having to move a box off the truck every 2-3 seconds yea...im gonna be ripped as shit in 2-3 months...
on the love life news...well...man thats a god damn complicated subject...and it basicly comes down to this...
this girl stands in front of my face even when i turn away...i havent been able to get away from her...even though i tried...and its paying off, for both of us...her constant being muleish, (read: stubborn) has shut up a lot of the fears in my head of being left behind...I still worry of course...because girl = dumb sometimes...but...her flat tenacity and pretty hardcore dedication to staying in my face has made me want to try again...of course...last time it lasted a week, and the time before that it got derailed by someone else, and the time before THAT i waited too long, and the time before that (see what i mean about this whole stubborn thing) i was a pretty big jerk and was kinda confused...(thats the amy year) sooooo, i guess this time...im gonna force myself to HAVE to look her in the face every day...i am AWSOME at finding a easy excuse to get out of a relationship when things get tough...and before i could just tell her to go home, that i didnt wanna deal with her...well now ive got a big room, and a decent sized house...(sorta) soooo, i asked her to come home early...and move in, move out of the dorms and actually live here live here...as in, she has a key...she gets mail here, she LIVES with me...my hope...is whenever i try to run away, i wont have anywhere to go...ill have to turn around, and deal with whatever is bugging me, or bugging her...and maybe...HOPEFULLY...by forcing myself to deal with her, instead of shirking the work that a relationship is, it will finally work...
aaanyways....
uhhh...
yea ok thats all i got...