Please kill me, I want to die.

[crazydiamond69]

I really want to die right now. I'm getting more and more upset as the minutes pass. And it's not because my birthday is tomorrow and I'll be 26, it's because of guys. Why are they so fucking cruel and inconsiderate? What do I do to deserve this? It's so unfair. There are two guys that I really like a lot, and they have both recently began treating me like I barely exist, and the person who I don't like, but likes me, tries in every conceivable way to make me feel like shit all the time, probably because he's bitter and jealous and a sore loser. And then there's another guy who I don't even know, who says he likes me and wants to date me, alledgedly, and the more I think about it, the more frightened and weirded out I am becoming of him. I just feel so fucking torn apart. Why did my life have to get so completely complicated all of a sudden? I just want a boyfriend. One guy that will love me and pay attention to me, and treat me decently. It truly seems to me like it'll never happen. Fuck, man. Why me? I can be such a nice person and such a great girlfriend, but certain people won't ever know that because they won't pay attention to me and give me a chance. Gods, I hate my life.

I'm sorry, I'm done whining now. Go back to whatever it was that you were doing.