Valentines day = PAIN
yesterday was so fucking terrible.. FIRST i go to the mall with james, he was in a bad mood already because it was valentines day and some shit in his past had happened before... so needless to say that wasnt good. we got ina fight.. he gave me my rose i got for him back to me and told me to give it to someone who deserves it... i dont know what i did really.... i told him i loved him the night before and everyone was pretty much okay.. but then everything went down. A few hours after james and i broke up, he attempted to kill himself. :'( Cayla was talking to him at the time and he told her it was too late, and if she sees him in heaven to say the right words. we were crying really bad and then her mom called the roseville police... they went to his house and found out he cut his wrists, so they took him to a psychiatric hospital... OUR lives will never be the same..... today we saw dj and belinda at the mall, thank god for them we would have lost it totally and completely... i wrote something for you, james.. here it is: I cant make it on my own Please stay on this earth with me here Until the end of time My heart is shattered into a million pieces now But I've loved you from the start It's strange how one person can change your life James Cleaves changed my life the day I met him And I know I will never forget him... He may have walked a dark and lonely path But that will never change his heart My love for you is too strong now and I cant let you go Last night I thought I lost him forever Thankfully from the help of a friend And a glimpse of reality He is still here today. I love you, James. It was you.. it was always you.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, JAMES.