Dirty Little Secret
The picture is old and I can't really remember how to go back and customize everything, but I thought maybe it was time for me to come back here. I've started about a thousand of these things and have never kept up with them so I figure maybe I need to go to the only successful one I've ever kept.
So why the hell am I here?
...
I have no clue.
It's summer. I'm home. I'm supposed to have time on my hands.
Still... no clue.
Maybe this is my subliminal way of throwing myself off of some kind of privacy cliff. God only knows how much privacy I really have (literally). People keep telling me I need to open up, and so maybe this is my way of quietly doing it. Honestly though, I kind of like my private life. It's kind of ironic, but I proudly wave my introvert flag.
Or maybe I just want a place to record what happens this summer. Simple, yes. But that's how I like things. Summer's half gone though, so I kinda blew this one. Not that anything has actually happened yet. Other than my family, and the people I work with, the only people I really "hang out" with are... well... kids. Seriously. They keep me young though. I say I get excited because of the money, but really, I get to play. 19 years later, and I fit in with people half my age.
I need to stop trying to decide what to do with the rest of my life. I don't want to make a decisiton and I don't think I should have to. I will probably never make up my mind. Watch, I'm going to be one of those people with a different plan every 5 minutes. Oh wait. I already am. I do know that I am getting out of here as soon as college is done. I'm going to New York City, just because. I don't care what I do when I'm there or how the hell I get there, but I'm doing it. So far, it's the only thing I have never changed my mind about... it's like my little (or rather BIG) secret passion. It's not really a secret though, because people know it. I just haven't really said that it's ALWAYS been my dirty little secret. Yeah, it's unrealistic, and cliche, and completely stupid, but so am I. I will wave that flag proudly as well.
Look at me, I'm breaking this privacy barrier already. It's not much, but it's a start.
On another note, I really want to hear a rock bad with a violinist. I'm sure there are tons, but none are coming to me at the moment. And if there aren't any, then there needs to be one. I think that would be real rock and roll.
So why the hell am I here?
...
I have no clue.
It's summer. I'm home. I'm supposed to have time on my hands.
Still... no clue.
Maybe this is my subliminal way of throwing myself off of some kind of privacy cliff. God only knows how much privacy I really have (literally). People keep telling me I need to open up, and so maybe this is my way of quietly doing it. Honestly though, I kind of like my private life. It's kind of ironic, but I proudly wave my introvert flag.
Or maybe I just want a place to record what happens this summer. Simple, yes. But that's how I like things. Summer's half gone though, so I kinda blew this one. Not that anything has actually happened yet. Other than my family, and the people I work with, the only people I really "hang out" with are... well... kids. Seriously. They keep me young though. I say I get excited because of the money, but really, I get to play. 19 years later, and I fit in with people half my age.
I need to stop trying to decide what to do with the rest of my life. I don't want to make a decisiton and I don't think I should have to. I will probably never make up my mind. Watch, I'm going to be one of those people with a different plan every 5 minutes. Oh wait. I already am. I do know that I am getting out of here as soon as college is done. I'm going to New York City, just because. I don't care what I do when I'm there or how the hell I get there, but I'm doing it. So far, it's the only thing I have never changed my mind about... it's like my little (or rather BIG) secret passion. It's not really a secret though, because people know it. I just haven't really said that it's ALWAYS been my dirty little secret. Yeah, it's unrealistic, and cliche, and completely stupid, but so am I. I will wave that flag proudly as well.
Look at me, I'm breaking this privacy barrier already. It's not much, but it's a start.
On another note, I really want to hear a rock bad with a violinist. I'm sure there are tons, but none are coming to me at the moment. And if there aren't any, then there needs to be one. I think that would be real rock and roll.