losing it..

[crazycraker1012]

im losing it......im fucked up..i feel sick i feel depressed...

tho me and john are goin good im goin to screw it up like i screw up everything. i even told him that he might as well break up with me cuz in the end i am goin to fuck up our relationship..i always do.

i dont deserve to be loved like i am by meg sheena and john, i dont deserve it im not a good person..i take my anger out on the people i care about the most i dont seem to give all i can as a friend..

john deserves so much better...

i just want to die sometimes....

i just want help.........

BOX CAR RACER LYRICS

"I Feel So"

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over