I HATE HIM!

[crazycooky365]

I can't stand this, I really cant. I had a throbbing headache today, from that damned hammer, so I called home to get a ride so I wouldn't have to deal with the bus. I go to the gymish area after I call and wait there, just talking to Jen A and Kara O'S. I see my dad pull up so I go outside and the second I shut the door he goes off on me, saying I should be more responsible, and be on time, and catch the bus and all that other bullshit that I always get. It was the longest drive ever cause my head was throbbing and he wouldn't shut up and wouldn't let me put music on to drown i'm out. I was so glad when we finally got home cause I could tell he was going to get into his speech about my future. Oh and thats a great big load of bullshit. I remember the first time I heard that one. It was right after I found out Missy and Chris had made out, so I was already down and on the verge of tears. I get in and he starts going on and on about how I need to get a job, and earn money for when get married. Really now I'm 15!! I don't need to worry about marriage. Yea he also goes out of his way to call me fat, and say I need exercise. But he doesn't notice the days I go without eating, or when I exercise my ass off. And he wants my mom to get a third job. I mean its bad enough she had to get a 2nd one so I could go to CHS, and I feel really guilty about that, but now he wants her to get a job on the weekends. I mean he works 5 hours a day, then spends about 12 hours on his ass doing nothing except watch TV. I mean he can't even help out around the house. In fact he's so lazy he makes people change the channel for him!! And he wants my mom to get another job. Yea Rite! And he's constantly on me to help out around the house more when in reality do my fair share, which is more than I can say for him. It's like whenever he sees me having fun or relaxing flips out and I guess he feels the need to scream at me. AND he's soo fucking prejudice. I hang out with this kid Pedro (he's Puerto Rican), and whenever he sees me outside with him, I get locked out of the house. Yet one time my friends Brian and Jay came over (Irish and French) and he was all smiles, and basically didn't give a shit. I mean how fucked up is that?! I just can't take this anymore. And I know I sound like a fucking pussy just whining about these little things but I had to let it out today. And I can't trust my dad either. He listens in on my phone calls, he reads my diary, and if I get a call from a guy, he just hangs up. and he goes to bed at 5 pm and I'm not allowed to make a sound, no music, TV low, and I have to stay online till really late so no one calls, and it sucks cause it means I can’t call people and they can’t call me. and he flips out if I hang out on my street, its like I have no life after 5 o'clock. It jus sucks major ass.
Well whoever's reading this I sorry for going on and on but today was the last straw. I'm outz for now.
Sarah