I swear this time...

Nov 19, 2003 19:29

Yea Ive vowed to myself that im gonna try and do this more often...like a few times a weeks...and even if its like a summary, ill write.
SO yea I thought Id start with report cards:
A - Spanish 2 - A+
B - Computer Literacy - A+
C - Concert Choir - A
D - Honors Biology - A-
E - Geometry - A+
F - English 2 - A
G - Religion - A+

GPA: 4.157

or suttin like that its not in front of me so i dont know exactly...yea so lets see today...was eh...i had another rape dream last night. ok so yea "I" was downtown, for some concert choir thing at a hotelish place and I was in concert black, but like this horrible dress that you could probably picture the usual stereotypical librarian in. (the dress had to mean something cuz i kept pictureing it and I remember it perfectly) so yea I was walking into the hotel and Jenn Miarecki walks out with some sort of instrument case in her school uniform. The hotel has random CHS people in uniform and someone tells me Im in the wrong place, but that the right hotel is around the corner. So i leave and start the walk. I get to the alleyish place thats fenced off from the road. I look behind me and 3 guys are following me. I hurry up a little, but subtly and and I get to the right hotel. So i walk in and its set up sort of weird...lots of space on the sides, but a long and sorta wide column of chairs directly in front of the stage. I go to the left of the stage and talk to nicki. Shes in uniform and gives me a weirdish look about concert black I freak out and she tries to calm me down by saying go see if your mom is still outside (not knowing i had to walk). So i leave, and start walking back. I reach the fenced alley and the three guys have just gotten to the end and after I pass they turn around and follow me. I try to hurry up, but the shows all of a sudden are too high for me to walk in and I become really wobbly and cant walk. I try to hurry up but keep slipping. They start catching up ao I try to run again but it doesn't work. By now Ive reached the end of the fenced alley and am sort of in front the first hotel. One of the guys lurches forward and grabs my ankle/leg and I trip and fall face first. I break my nose and its a lot of sudden blood. Then the guy who tripped me starts trying to rip off my skirt and pull it up and stuff. I keep trying to kick at him but it doesnt work. The other two guys start holding me down, and one of them takes both my arms and holds them over my head and the other tries to stop my legs from moving. Then 2 girls run out of the hotel, and stop them (im pretty usre it was 2 people from my spanish class but not really) and I'm put in an ambulance while the fight goes on.

And I woke up with this huge feeling like it was really gonna happen. And I couldnt fall back asleep and it was so hard to fall asleep on monday night too. well last night the dream was shorter, but just kept repeating.

So this is kinda short but here it is: Im sleeping in my bed, but im in my uniform, so it makes me think i had fallen asleep unexpectedly. But anyways, Im facing my wall, and I hear my door open. I want to move or scream or soemthing, but I can't. When I finally think I can scream, a hand comes over my mouth, and i feel like stubble on my cheek, and in a raspy voice, some guy tells me theres no point in screaming cuz no one will hear me. I try to anyways, but his grip gets tighter, and he starts to turn me around. Thats when it stops, but it kept going over and over and I couldn't wake up. but when I finally did, it was like 3 and i didnt want to sleep anymore.

So yea those are my freaky as dreams. Fun huh. I wonder how Ill sleep tonite. but back to school.
So yea I came sorta late, but got to decoteaus in time. We made kumkum boxes and i didnt get to finish ::pout::. Decoteaus piling on the work though. Im screwed. In homeroom I was glad to hear that there was talkage for Daniella and I got to hear about what was up with Tami (GO HER! lol). Bio was fun, as usual, but we have a test, and Im starting to not get it again. (Brodeur Rocks!) Math class came and surprise surprise, we actually did work. Its all cuz of the guy that was in the back. No more cranes, but stacey said shed make me a mama if i brought in the paper!!! Religion was great. Mrs Guertin was telling us all about what it was like when she taught at public schools and all the fights and stuff. but then she got into how lucky we were cuz we got this great opprutunity to make something of ourselves, and how most people just scrape by and how you hafta put in an effort and it was really inspiring (sortof like in choir, when we had the big speeches before we got the risers....that did so much good for choir, its so much fun now. and im trying harder at home to practice and everything, i just think we need more discipline). In spanish, i was assigned a new partner, but was left partnerless cuz neither she nor steph were in and I got to make group decisions and i felt horrible because I know how I get all perfectionisty and OCDish and i choose to go first and their probably gonna hate what I choose and Im scared of ruining friendships when I get all bitchy when its not perfect. Lunch was fun cuz we got to mix it up and Me and Jesse brought up when he wanted me to give Pat Boss head (inside joke...i dont mean sucking dick cuz eww no def. not...especially with pat boss...just GROSS) well yea it was computer lit, and i missed out on Jamies impressions, and I completely forgot to tell Julie my 2nd dream (she had interest in my first one so I was gonna tell her i had another one, but i forgot).And Choir was great. It has been for awhile now. We did great at the open house.
Speaking of the Open House. It was SOO much fun. I got to hang out with Dani and Shay and Christina and it was great. We got a 9 year old to join choir when he came!!! It was just a great time. And I got to see Danny, my 8th grade Portuguese buddy and Gina and Kristen and all my other SMS peeps. It was great.
But off that topic I just wanna talk about how great choirs been agian. At first their was so much tension and so many problems, first it seemed mostly in the altos, but then it became so apparent in the sopranos. There had been a lotta superiority problems and we got something new in Christina--a freshmand. I felt extremely bad for my part in their problems, especially since I wasnt a soprano and it was NONE of my business, i apologized to Christina. She really is great. Wicked fun to with lol. And she shares my love for Cocker Spaniels. well after that things got better, to me at least. there seemed to be less tension in the altos, and eventually the sopranos worked stuff out. Then they office holders had a meeting and everything they said just really got to me. they all made awesome points. And its made me wanna do so much better. I really think that helped. but now im just getting redundant and im probably sounding like im trying to suck up (to who i dunno but i think i sound like a lil goody 2 shoes)
but yea thats up to date for now. so :p!!!
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